Hi everyone,
I hope everyone is doing ok on this tough journey. I’m 3 months on from miscarriage and wanted to give a little update how I feel, with the hope it might help others. The first month was really difficult. It was so hard for me, the grief and the anger was overwhelming at some points. At times I felt such a strong rage that it frightened me. I went to my GP and went on antidepressants. I also left my stressful job with a bullying boss. I stepped down, and it’s been the best decision I ever made. I started seeing a counsellor, and that helped me with my grief, my anger and jealousy.
Loosing my baby has given me time and perspective to think about my life. I was working for a company, pushing myself beyond stress for what reason? For who? Not for me. I’ve been thinking about what my baby would want, and my baby would want mummy to be happy. I really feel that my life has changed since my miscarriage, it’s taught me a lot of lessons. I’m focussed on myself, and enriching my life, and appreciating my lovely fiancé, my beautiful dog, and our friends and family, who have supported us through the worst time of our lives.
I still have moments where I feel sad that I only had such a short time with my baby. I’m still caught out by moments of deep hurt. But I’m trying to move forward in memory of my angel, like she’s watching me from above.
I just wanted to post because I never thought I’d be able to survive in those first weeks after. And anyone reading this who is there now, I want to say there is life after miscarriage, you will be happy again, it just takes some time, and going through the grief process.
Good luck to everyone here, whatever stage you’re at. Xxx