Sorry I haven’t posted in a while...
After we sadly suffered a miscarriage following our last round of IVF using DE earlier this year I needed to take a break from all things fertility.
My OH didn’t want to talk about the MC or even consider trying again so I left it for a few months.
Finally managed to get him to talk this week and was really hoping he’d changed his mind but at the moment he isn’t willing to try again with the frozen embies we have.
I’ve just turned 45 so for me it’s now or never. We’ve been TTC for over 6 years and it’s been hanging over every decision I make. I just can’t take living in limbo anymore not knowing if he might change his mind at some point whilst I’m not getting any younger. I know it’s such an important decision that he needs to want too.
I’ve thought really hard about whether I still want to try to have a baby at this time if my life when I feel so tired just looking after myself. But I came to the conclusion as long as we’ve got some frosties I can’t not try, I think I’d regret it forever.
I’m absolutely devastated, it feels he’s completely taken away my chance to have a baby and I’m struggling to deal with all this by myself. I don’t think our relationship will survive this, I feel resentful, angry and so alone.
Just don’t know where to turn now 😢
Please can anyone help? Xxxx