Sorry I havenāt posted in a while...
After we sadly suffered a miscarriage following our last round of IVF using DE earlier this year I needed to take a break from all things fertility.
My OH didnāt want to talk about the MC or even consider trying again so I left it for a few months.
Finally managed to get him to talk this week and was really hoping heād changed his mind but at the moment he isnāt willing to try again with the frozen embies we have.
Iāve just turned 45 so for me itās now or never. Weāve been TTC for over 6 years and itās been hanging over every decision I make. I just canāt take living in limbo anymore not knowing if he might change his mind at some point whilst Iām not getting any younger. I know itās such an important decision that he needs to want too.
Iāve thought really hard about whether I still want to try to have a baby at this time if my life when I feel so tired just looking after myself. But I came to the conclusion as long as weāve got some frosties I canāt not try, I think Iād regret it forever.
Iām absolutely devastated, it feels heās completely taken away my chance to have a baby and Iām struggling to deal with all this by myself. I donāt think our relationship will survive this, I feel resentful, angry and so alone.
Just donāt know where to turn now š¢
Please can anyone help? Xxxx