Heartbroken once again.

[Mantaray75]

Thanks for everyone's support over recent days. You guys are amazing.

As expected its not good news. After the increased bleeding last night the scan today showed a sac of the right size but it was empty and had an irregular shape. Frustratingly the bleeding has stopped and my HCG is still rising (although it was only 37,600 today from 30, 600 on Friday).

Literally exactly the same symptoms as before at exactly the same time. Just don't know why I can't get beyond 6 weeks. Last time I could blame it on my rubbish eggs but this time the donor was 26 with kids of her own and a previous recipient had success.

Feeling totally gutted about this, losing my dad and being so far from home.

x

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Oh no. What a horrible day for you. I am thinking of you and sending big hugs xxx

[KittyK]

So sorry to hear this thoughts with you and your hubby question, are you on anything to prevent clotting? I had miscarriages the same time as you twice and i was put on 75mg aspirin and clexane to stop clotting as my specialist suspected that would help and after that we had success. No idea if that is something that could help you?

Either way be kind to yourself I wish you all the best in this tryingtime it is heartbreaking xxx

[Mantaray75 in reply to KittyK]

No, not taking anything extra. When it happened last time we just thought it was my old eggs. I’m not prepared to use our remaining frosties without some changes being made.

Its gonna be a while anyway as we won’t have chance to get back to Spain until after Xmas.

X

[Cinderella5]

Oh Mantaray Im so so sorry! Could it just be too early to visualise the sac well? I had been wondering if perhaps you just lost one embryo. Have they given any hope to you? Are you being rescanned in a few days or hCG monitoring? Huge hugs love, you've had a very difficult time of late, especially with the loss of your dad too!

Completely get your frustration regarding moving from your own rubbish eggs to using DE although my situation is a lot different. My donor was also young and someone else had success and I still cant get pregnant.xx

[Mantaray75 in reply to Cinderella5]

The midwife said to keep my 7 week scan which is booked for Friday but she also kept on saying how sorry she was, so not much hope. Combining heavy bleeding, a dodgy scan and slow rising HCG isn’t exactly positive.

She will talk to the doctor in the morning as it’s nighttime here in NZ now.

X

[Cinderella5 in reply to Mantaray75]

Oh no she doesnt sound overly positive does she but I guess you'll know either way on Friday, such a torurous wait. Im really sorry, cant imagine what you're going through. I know you probably wont be able to but try to get some rest.xxx

[Caza2009]

Sending you loads of love at such a difficult time! 💕❤️ I’m sorry you’re going through this! Xxxxx

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So sorry to hear this 💔 thinking of you xxx

[Lizzielizzielizzie]

Oh mantaray this is awful news, I’m so sorry xx

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Oh Mantray75 I’m shocked beyond words you are going through this again. Too cruel. I wish I had better words all I can say is how sorry I am for your loss & that I’m thinking of you. xoxo

[hannahkc]

So gutted for you Mantaray, devastating news after such hope initially Xx

[Hidden]

Mantaray, I'm so so sorry to hear this, there are no words. Thinking of you at this awful time, hopefully they will be able to tell you more on Friday xx

[CC2018]

I'm so sorry. I agree with asking about clexane and aspirin. See if you can be tested for antiphospholipids too. You will get your baby xx

[Caroliono4]

I'm really sorry to read your news. The waiting over the last few daysist have been horrendous. Ive found myself in a similar place several times and, despite having all the drugs (clexane, steroids etc) thrown at me have recently moved on to donor eggs at 43.

Has your partner had a dna fragmentation test on his sperm? We used ICSI for a failed OE and current DE as mine has fairly high %. However on our current DE cycle we were told that the embryos were showing signs of fragmentation on the embryoscope and I'm wondering if its still the sperm that are causing the problem as ours is a proven donor.

Sending best wishes at such a difficult time x x

[Mantaray75 in reply to Caroliono4]

No he just had karyotyping. The embryos looked really good and the clinic use ICSI as standard procedure.

[Autumnmoon]

Bless you so sorry to read this sending love x

[misswinky34]

Oh manteray I’m literally speechless for you. I’m so so sorry.

[forMoira]

Sending love.

[Mifkipi]

I'm so so sorry to read this. Sending you lots of hugs and love x

[Mantaray75]

Spanish clinic now want me to up my progesterone and have another scan in a week. Feel in complete limbo.

The ultrasound technician was very experienced and completely convinced it was a non viable pregnancy.

I hate just sitting here waiting to start bleeding. It was so painful last time that I really can’t go through that again.

X

[lianm8 in reply to Mantaray75]

Sorry to hear what you are going through. Make sure you are getting lots of rest and being well looked after. Sending lots of hugs xxxx

[Wishfully in reply to Mantaray75]

So tough being stranded in limbo, but the fact the clinic want to keep you on the meds means there is some hope. I guess you need to let this play out and see how it goes. Stay strong lovely xx

[Dreamingofbaby]

So sorry to hear this. So deverstating. Just bit fair and doesn’t make sense at times. Take good care xx

[magda22]

I'm so sorry love, sending many hugs xxx