Everyday is the same

Feel like everyday is the same, just about getting through it , trying to avoid mother’s and children; dodging them on my way to work and on the way back, muting the tv when adverts about nappies or toys or anything family related come on, trying to block out the pain and carry on, trying to be positive about our only embryo left in the freezer even tho consultant says it has just a10% chance of sticking, trying to think of ways to raise another £10k to start again trying trying trying.

[Cooking-Queen20]

Myhope - I feel your pain, frustration and anguish. But everyday is different. Everyday you are stronger, wiser, more experienced and full of convinction to what you want to achieve.

Nothing can explain why many of us, to differing degrees got the short straw. But there is a world out there looking to help us, and we are here to help each other.

So have faith, look back on all you have done and achieved in this journey. Be honest with yourself....it’s an uncertain one, so look back on the learning, the strength and resilience you have developed and put on that song that makes you want to dance. And dance, dance because you are on a rollercoaster journey and nothing beats a good song to dance to!

Keep going, keep crying, keep doing what you need to do to get through the day and remember we are here for you!

Big hug!

[Abaco]

I feel so sad reading your post and can really feel your pain. I know it's cliched but everyday will get that little bit easier and the light will start to show again. You are a determined, strong person who has been through an awful lot but you Will get through this. Lean on your family and friends and this board, there are lots of us going on similar journeys and know what you are going through. big hugs to you and if you ever want a chat, I'm here X

[HollieW]

Really feel for you. This process is so bloody awful and so unfair. You will have good days and bad days. Today is a bad day but tomorrow will be better. Keep strong and be kind to yourself we all know what you are going through on here and the pain we have to go through xx

[Hidden]

My 1st round of IVF just failed and I am feeling same just like you.lots of love for you.❤️❤️❤️

[ICSI2018]

Hey lovely,

You’re not alone. I too feel this exact same way, my cycle failed on Monday and we’ve been TTC for years. I can’t bare to see pregnant women or babies, including in my own family.

It really isn’t fair but I’m trying to get through it by making as many positive life changes as I can in order to not only increase our IVF chances but to also hopefully provide us with a glimmer of a chance naturally. It may not work but it’s giving me something to focus with on.

Sending hugs

Xx

[Shirazlover2013]

Hi myhope, it is such a drain all these emotions. They’re all valid and it’s natural to feel them, we here all understand them too and empathise with you in your journey. I really struggle with the baby on board badges on my daily commute, I see about 3 a day every day (seriously how are there so many pregnant ladies out there all at once!!!). Sometimes it really is just a survival game, one day at a time.

I’m saving for my 1st round of IVF later this year and am chipping away at the scary total. I’ve reduced my takeaway coffee treat to myself to only when I really need that caffeine, coffee in the office has to do for all other days. I’m not ordering as many takeaways at home. I’m trying to bring my lunch to work more often (still need to try harder with this one!). I love online shopping so I’ve had to be really strong and question my need for that top or that makeup. Instead I’m enjoying doing weekly online grocery deliveries. Re-reading my suggestions above I can see I live a rock n roll life 🤣 NOT!! But I don’t mind I have my focus on a goal and that’s what keeps me going most days.

Hope you feel a bit more positive soon xx

[Rainbowhope]

I am in exactly the same boat as you. I have such little faith left that I often forget about our frozen one. Everyday is a struggle and the nightly panic attacks are the worst