Trying to find my brave face!

[CBOO1]

Pretty sure the pregnancy news is going to come out at work today, all 4 of us are working & I can’t believe no one has noticed the ever growing bump yet! I know there will never be a good time but our fertility appointment is on Monday....... how am I going to get through this without having a complete meltdown?! I can already feel my heart racing just thinking about it!!

[Hidden]

Hi Hun, try seeing your fertility appointment on Monday as a huge positive, fingers crossed it will be a step closer to you achieving your dream of being a mum 🙂. As for pregnancy news, it's hard but remember as much as you wish it was you announcing your pregnancy other people being pregnant or having kids has very little impact on your life. I hated hearing other peoples good news at times but never felt jealous as I would tell myself it was my own baby with the man I love that I longed for. It's taken me 41 years to get pregnant & stay pregnant so I had lots of practice! Good luck with everything 😘 xx

[CBOO1 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you, yeah I know you’re right, her being pregnant & other people having babies isn’t what stopping us from having one, it’s just so hard! Congratulations to you, wishing you a happy & healthy pregnancy 💞 xx

[Reb990]

Hello I know the feeling you are having so well. One of my work colleagues finished up today for maternity leave and I could have cried it’s not me.

Instead I put my brave face on and organised cakes and presents, in the hope by this time next year it will be me!

I find sometimes the things I think are going to send me into meltdown actually don’t. Instead it’s the random unexpected things.

Hope you manage to get through it and just think it could be you soon after your appointment.

[CBOO1 in reply to Reb990]

Bless you it’s so horrible having to be brave & put on a smile when all you want to do is run away & cry! Well done for getting through it xx

[CBOO1]

Thank you! You’re better than me - I’ve avoided all baby showers, I just can’t do it! That’s really lovely that you’ve finally got there xx

[CBOO1]

This is just it though, not being able to have a family with the man I love feels like the end of the world right now. Depending on what they say Monday I know I will have to get my head around but at the moment I’m not ready to face that & have to hope that by some miracle it happens xx

[Hidden]

Except it kind of is the end of the world when it feels like u can’t control anything, all u can do is get through the day xxx I totally it x