We did it and I survived 😂

[mrs_m_shizzle_dizzle]

We have begun our injections - I have a genuine phobia of needles where I can’t control where I react. I’m writing this in case it helps anyone and also to get my fears out of my head 🙃

We go to our bedroom same time every evening shut the door and have quiet and calm and no distractions. Having a little control helps so I help hubby set up and start. Once the needle is ready I lie down on the bed put headphones and music on. First injection wasn’t too bad it was the unknown a slight tear and first time hubby had injected me so a slight scratch lol but it was ok we hugged laughed and went to snuggle and watch a film. Feeling lighter that we had survived.

However now I know what to expect my body is finding it harder, heavy breathing more wriggling etc so I push my feet continuously into the bottom of the bed put music on focus on my breathing and cover my face with a pillow so dark focus on my breathing and focus on keeping calm and thinking of everything else while my body wants to literally run away it takes a couple of tries and I can stop the floods now coming out of my eyes 😂 yet I’m not upset that’s the phobia I’m actually so excited to have started.

My oh and I you can sense the change.

I’m determined to have a PMA that this will work but that doesn’t stop the fear mixed with hope of the unknown.

The questions of what if we have injected wrong? What if we have forgotten something? What if I took the pill on the wrong day? What if they get no eggs?

However those unknowns can go jump off a cliff because all we can all do is the best we can do. Luckily like I’m sure you all do as well I have the amazing support and love of my oh and the knowledge that one way or another it will work for us xx

[Cinderella5]

Well done for getting on with the injections whilst coping with your phobia!! First hurdle done!xx

[Squeak2]

Well done and good luck! xx

[Emilykingston]

I have a needle phobia too. You are lucky to survive it though. Just don't think bad now. It will all be good in the end hopefully. Wish me luck too. I will be starting my cycle on Monday. I am scared as hell. I hope I don't faint seeing the needle.

[mrs_m_shizzle_dizzle]

You will be ok I promise we try to laugh at my reaction I’m getting worse as it goes on but I will go through hell if it means it works. There are mindful apps I tried listening to that are meant to be calming but then went for music after we snuggle and watch a film I also eat a bit of chocolate after have something comforting 😂 x

[Lizzielizzielizzie]

You’re doing really well, well done and keep going.