The drugs are ready. The injecting tutorial is being rewatched. My nerves aren’t here. My positive outlook is making appearances when it can. I’ve got feelings of being relaxed and defeated at the same time. Is that possible?
I know for some women here that might read as selfish or like I shouldn’t be doing it if I’m not 100% in to it; but I’m convinced this is the way my body protects itself from it all going wrong again.
It’ll be exactly one year to the day we start again. We could pass through the one year anniversary of the devastating Manchester terrorist attacks on the one year anniversary of our BFP.
Mr Emu is the strongest I know. We’ll have our transfer about 4 weeks into his mums chemotherapy treatment for lung cancer. I’m not sure this is the best timed cycle. But when is? Another month later? And at risk of Mr Emu being made redundant, it feels like no time is ever a good time.
I desperate for this to work. But, I’m desperate to have my life back. Our life back. That’s all we want really...a life we crave or a life we know.
Big hugs to you all. Especially our warrior donor. She rocks. I’ll apologise now for the crazy posts over the next 6 weeks! x
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Hi emu2016. It’s the perfect time, even with Mr Emu’s mother into her chemotherapy. It will give her something to focus on too. You know I am wholly with you on this. Thinking of you as always. Diane
Well, I can’t predict the future, but I do know you will have some stiff competition for the crazy posts over the next 6 weeks...right here with you cycle buddy!! I also know you guys are one of the strongest couples I “know” (but then I reckon me and MrH are pretty strong too 😉)
Ever since I joined this forum you have been there picking others up whilst going through a barrel of obstacles yourself, if you don’t mind I will be following your story now especially as we will be facing IvF too. It gives me hope that I’ll be able to get through it too.
I am wishing you so much luck and baby dust and everything I can cross is crossed.
I really hope this is your time and as Diane said at least it may give Mr Emu’s mum something to distract her too.
You’re telling me! It’s my one piece of advice for everyone else and forget about me! I’ll be on the road for a couple of nights for two weeks with work. But planning nice weekends and seeing friends! Thanks for your lovely support xx
Wanting to send you all the luck in the world, no matter what, stay positive and focused. Our donors are amazing ladies and hopefully dispite everything else going on around you this round will be your silver lining and a rainbow will be born! Xx
Oh best of luck, Emu! Hang in there! Even really long infertility journeys have a happy ending. I know so many couples who just kept fighting and kept trying, even when the odds seemed insurmountable. And you know what? ALL of those couples have their babies now. All of them.
Best wishes for Mr. Emu's mum, too! You're going to get through this
Wishing you all the luck in the world for this cycle lovely lady, I don't think there is such a thing as a good time! Hubby and I will both be rooting for you guys!😙💪🤗 Look forward to hearing your updates!!xxx
Best of luck to you for this cycle. I am full of admiration for you ladies who keep going despite all the hurdles you've faced. You're all blooming strong! Xx
Most of the time I think I’m fairly weak compared to most women! There are ladies who are sheer machines compared to me! Hope your journey is going ok x
I just wanted to wish you the best for this cycle and to say I totally get how you want your life back. It’s about having some control. It’s so scary and uncertain having so many things going on in your life that you have no control over. Not only do you have the uncertainty with the ivf but you have the uncertainty with your mother in law being poorly. No wonder you want some control over your life. Please don’t call yourself selfish. You’re not. You are a very kind and giving lady. You are merely protecting your heart. I think everyone on here understands that and will support you. Remember that even if you are protecting yourself and you feel like you’re not giving it 100%, you will be. Your hope and our hopes for you will be making up for any shortfall you are feeling. Lean on us, our hopes and prayers will remain strong for you. Keep a little back for yourself and Mr Emu. xxx
Oh goodness. I know that feeling. In the end it helped me to create a mini plan... the one where I didn’t know the plan so until then I planned other things! I’m a weirdo. Sending lots of love x
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