Third time lucky?

[emu2016]

Tomorrow we’ll start our third round of IVF.

The drugs are ready. The injecting tutorial is being rewatched. My nerves aren’t here. My positive outlook is making appearances when it can. I’ve got feelings of being relaxed and defeated at the same time. Is that possible?

I know for some women here that might read as selfish or like I shouldn’t be doing it if I’m not 100% in to it; but I’m convinced this is the way my body protects itself from it all going wrong again.

It’ll be exactly one year to the day we start again. We could pass through the one year anniversary of the devastating Manchester terrorist attacks on the one year anniversary of our BFP.

Mr Emu is the strongest I know. We’ll have our transfer about 4 weeks into his mums chemotherapy treatment for lung cancer. I’m not sure this is the best timed cycle. But when is? Another month later? And at risk of Mr Emu being made redundant, it feels like no time is ever a good time.

I desperate for this to work. But, I’m desperate to have my life back. Our life back. That’s all we want really...a life we crave or a life we know.

Big hugs to you all. Especially our warrior donor. She rocks. I’ll apologise now for the crazy posts over the next 6 weeks! x

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK]

Hi emu2016. It’s the perfect time, even with Mr Emu’s mother into her chemotherapy. It will give her something to focus on too. You know I am wholly with you on this. Thinking of you as always. Diane

[emu2016 in reply to DianeArnold]

Thanks Diane xx

[WeeMrsH]

Well, I can’t predict the future, but I do know you will have some stiff competition for the crazy posts over the next 6 weeks...right here with you cycle buddy!! I also know you guys are one of the strongest couples I “know” (but then I reckon me and MrH are pretty strong too 😉)

WE CAN DO THIS. 🤞🏼😃💕

[emu2016 in reply to WeeMrsH]

Double trouble for the next 6 weeks. Mr H and Mr Emu will be stir crazy with me and you texting all the time! 😂😂😂 xx

[WeeMrsH in reply to emu2016]

🤣🤔

[Hollibob]

Wishing you all the luck imaginably possible x

[kelsbels88]

Ever since I joined this forum you have been there picking others up whilst going through a barrel of obstacles yourself, if you don’t mind I will be following your story now especially as we will be facing IvF too. It gives me hope that I’ll be able to get through it too.

I am wishing you so much luck and baby dust and everything I can cross is crossed.

I really hope this is your time and as Diane said at least it may give Mr Emu’s mum something to distract her too.

💜 Kelly xxx

[emu2016 in reply to kelsbels88]

You made a little tear escape! Thank you. We haven’t told Mr Emu’s mum; hoping to give her something to focus on at the other side of treatment xx

[kelsbels88 in reply to emu2016]

Awww sorry, not my intention.

Always hear to lend an ear if you ever need one.

I can not think of anyone who deserves it more.

Good luck 😉

Ps make sure you plan nice things too in between (I hear it’s meant to help) 😁

Xxx

[emu2016 in reply to kelsbels88]

You’re telling me! It’s my one piece of advice for everyone else and forget about me! I’ll be on the road for a couple of nights for two weeks with work. But planning nice weekends and seeing friends! Thanks for your lovely support xx

[kelsbels88 in reply to emu2016]

Anytime 😊🤞🏻 xx

[baby2016]

Wanting to send you all the luck in the world, no matter what, stay positive and focused. Our donors are amazing ladies and hopefully dispite everything else going on around you this round will be your silver lining and a rainbow will be born! Xx

[emu2016 in reply to baby2016]

That rainbow would be lovely 🌈 xx

[Autumnmoon]

All absolutely hoping your dream comes true x

[Tomorrow_1]

Oh best of luck, Emu! Hang in there! Even really long infertility journeys have a happy ending. I know so many couples who just kept fighting and kept trying, even when the odds seemed insurmountable. And you know what? ALL of those couples have their babies now. All of them.

Best wishes for Mr. Emu's mum, too! You're going to get through this

[Cinderella5]

Wishing you all the luck in the world for this cycle lovely lady, I don't think there is such a thing as a good time! Hubby and I will both be rooting for you guys!😙💪🤗 Look forward to hearing your updates!!xxx

[emu2016 in reply to Cinderella5]

Keep rooting! xx

[Tugsgirl]

Hopefully third time lucky for you yes 🤞 Good luck xx

[emu2016 in reply to Tugsgirl]

Thanks you xx

[Hidden]

Best of luck to you for this cycle. I am full of admiration for you ladies who keep going despite all the hurdles you've faced. You're all blooming strong! Xx

[emu2016 in reply to Hidden]

Most of the time I think I’m fairly weak compared to most women! There are ladies who are sheer machines compared to me! Hope your journey is going ok x

[Hidden in reply to emu2016]

We never see ourselves as others see us...Don't underestimate your strength!

Day 6 stims scan in the morning. Hopdfully all is going well x

[emu2016 in reply to Hidden]

Good luck! x

[Emma04]

Wishing you the best of luck with your cycle xxxx

[emu2016 in reply to Emma04]

Thanks x

[7AVA]

Sending so much luck your way Emu xxx

[emu2016 in reply to 7AVA]

Thanks xz

[Lizzielizzielizzie]

Good luck my lovely x

[emu2016 in reply to Lizzielizzielizzie]

Thanks you. Seems like de ja vu!

[_MrsC]

I just wanted to wish you the best for this cycle and to say I totally get how you want your life back. It’s about having some control. It’s so scary and uncertain having so many things going on in your life that you have no control over. Not only do you have the uncertainty with the ivf but you have the uncertainty with your mother in law being poorly. No wonder you want some control over your life. Please don’t call yourself selfish. You’re not. You are a very kind and giving lady. You are merely protecting your heart. I think everyone on here understands that and will support you. Remember that even if you are protecting yourself and you feel like you’re not giving it 100%, you will be. Your hope and our hopes for you will be making up for any shortfall you are feeling. Lean on us, our hopes and prayers will remain strong for you. Keep a little back for yourself and Mr Emu. xxx

[emu2016 in reply to _MrsC]

Awwwwww thanks MrsC. I’m ready to wake up tomorrow and take on my cycle. Leaning on you lot will really help me xx

[Hidden]

Good luck. You know we are all here watching your journey and sending you loads of positive vibes and good luck. I really hope it works. Xxxx

[emu2016 in reply to Hidden]

Me too! I want it to work for us all! How are you? x

[Hidden in reply to emu2016]

You know - in limbo. Just want to get to the point where I know my plan. Xx

[emu2016 in reply to Hidden]

Oh goodness. I know that feeling. In the end it helped me to create a mini plan... the one where I didn’t know the plan so until then I planned other things! I’m a weirdo. Sending lots of love x

[Hidden in reply to emu2016]

Well this time is your time. You have your plan and today is the start. Wishing you so much luck xxx

[emu2016 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks you x 🙏🏻 🤞🏼 x

[Hidden]

Wishing you the best of luck🤞🤞🤞. Third time lucky xxx

[emu2016 in reply to Hidden]

Hope so! Thank you xx

[Leo2017]

Wishing you the very best of luck!! xx

[gattonero]

Good luck bella!

Keep us posted xxx

[emu2016 in reply to gattonero]

Will do! Two hours to injection! 🙈 x