3rd BFN and 1 miscarriage, I sometimes cannot believe that's my obstetrics history! Working as a neonatal nurse Id see women who have these histories and didn't have a clue before it happened to us! I can honestly say this is the hardest thing I have gone through. I feel utterly broken and not quite sure what to do with myself. I don't want to see any friends because most of them are pregnant or had babies. Why isn't it my turn. Why isn't it working for us!