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Feel like I’m losing my mind today! 😢

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It’s been just over 4 months since we lost our beautiful boys, our first babies! Miss them so much & now I’m sooo desperate to be pregnant again. Found out one of my friends is expecting on Friday & then there’s a mate I know who is having twins & their due soon. And then there’s a lady at work who is pregnant she’s been off since before Christmas due to personal issues but she’s back to work today & her bump is bigger thanever! Pregnant woman seem to be everywhere 🙈 just feels like a kick in the teeth. I know it’s not their fault but it hurts so much.

And I hate that the Drs won’t let me try again until March & there is nothing I can do about it as I need IVF. Hate people telling me what to do at the best of times but this is hard.

I’ve been coping okay lately as well, waiting patiently until February so I can order the drugs for FET & the clinic said they would scan me before starting anything aswell. At the moment I’m just sat here doing nothing waiting! 🙄

Sorry rant over!!

Hope everyone else is having a better day than me!

Xxxx

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-noodles-

feel free to rant away - you’re in good company.

i can’t even imagine the pain you’re going through, but 4 months is no time, you’re entitled to feel sad/angry/despair. were you offered counselling?

i live in london & always seem to end up next to women on the tube/train wearing “baby on board” badges - i swear i attract them!!

i wish you all the best in your next round ✨💕✨

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Hope85 in reply to-noodles-

Thank you 😘

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E_05

Don’t apologise for ranting, am totally with you on this one! I to feel like I’m a magnet for pregnant women and bumps at the moment😩

I to have to wait till March as I’m having a hysteroscopy first but it’s really beginning to get on my nerves, when I’m having treatment I at least feel like I’m trying.

Hope the time goes quick for us both and lots of luck for your FET 🤞xx

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Hope85 in reply toE_05

I hope all goes well & good luck for March 🤞🏼😘

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Vicky35

Hi Hope85,

Don’t apologise for your rant, it’s been a totally rubbish time for you and pregnant women are everywhere!

I recently had a councilling session after our early miscarriage at Christmas and it really helped. Is this something your clinic or GP could offer?

In a nutshell we were told not to underestimate the grief caused from IVF alone but to then have a miscarriage can be indescribable. You will have days, weeks and maybe even a month feeling ok but then out of nowhere comes the grief again.

This is the best place to write about those days because who knows better than the other courageous women and men on this forum.

We are hear to listen whenever you need us. Good luck in your next cycle, March will be here before you know it xx

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Hope85 in reply toVicky35

Thank you 😘

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Tugsgirl

We can’t avoid them can we? Pregnant women and babies. The irony is that I will do everything I can to avoid them, it’s like I’m allergic to the one thing I want more than anything in the world. I just can’t bear to be around them. I have a funeral to go to on February the 1st and my two bffs will be there; one’s due her baby the day before the funeral and the other is two weeks further on than I should have been after my second loss last year. Looking at her will be like looking at how my bump should my be too. You’re not alone. I’m sorry you’re having to go through this and I hope that time goes quickly for you so that you can try again xx

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Hope85 in reply toTugsgirl

Thank you 😘

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Hope85

Thank you ladies! Had a really bad few days! Emotional wreck comes to mind! Don’t know if it’s because they could of been here now too that’s contributing to my mood. I have been having a few counselling session through the charity Petals. I don’t know if it’s helping or not if I’m honest I get the impression that she thinks that I’m concentrating on trying again too much but I thought it’s a good thing that I’m looking to the future? Got another session next Monday & it bugs me that the appointment is in the maternity building a few doors down from where I was was when I lost the boys. Apparently they don’t have any spare rooms anywhere else.

Xxx

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QQLO

Hi, I'm sorry about your lose, but please try to look at positive side. I also had failed ICSI with two embryos, which at beginning, I put my hope so high as everything is going very smooth. I do believe your chance will come and it's just a matter of time. I found be relaxed is very important and try not to think too much. I have also tried acupuncture and hot water bottle (1hr) every night, beetroots juice, which have helped me to have good lining. I don't know if I will succeed in coming Saturday FET naturally, but I just tell myself I do what I can do and go with flow. Sometimes best thing happen to you when you are not expecting them. I do think take rest in between IVF is good for your body because at the end, you need to be healthy and ready for your next baby to come. Don't give up and stay calm!

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Hope85 in reply toQQLO

Thank you for the tips xx

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