Hello there, sorry I haven't been on in a while... I guess my absence echoes the title of this post.
I'm heartened to see so many lovely stories and my heart goes out to those who've experienced sadness. I wish you all the very best for the year to come.
So, after several months off from ivf, becoming healthier and calmer through yoga, fitness and spiritual practice I felt more prepared for the next round of ivf set for early Jan.
However, since returning from a holiday in November, my healthy efforts and new found calm have gone out the window as my November af came a whopping 5 days early, which could mean af may be here over the next few days!
The thought of starting ivf over the Christmas period is quite frankly freaking me and I've realised that I'm putting every conceivable obstacle in the way of starting ivf again so soon.
I keep thinking that I've fallen off the exercise and healthy eating wagon since my hol, had alcohol on several occasions, my step-son is with us atm, so hospital trips and injecting in secret will be tricky, work has been highly stressful over the last few weeks, I'm sleep deprived and have the lerg so have convinced myself that "conditions aren't optimal for success"!
And so you see the perfectionist I've tried to shed creeps back in and the list of excuses grows.
I guess it just feels like a really emotional time for both of us too, knowing if I hadn't lost the first time we'd be celebrating baby's first Christmas now.
I really feel like ringing the clinic and asking them if we can start with my January af instead so we're in a better place, but are there ever "right conditions" or should I give my emerging inner scardy cat a good talking to...?
Luck and love to you and yours for now and the coming year xxx