I'm sorry to moan but I feel I need to vent how unfair this whole thing seems and I'm running out of places to go!
Does anyone else feel like it's all just one long, never ending waiting game? I feel as if I'm waiting to start living my life again but I'm being followed by the huge cloud of infertility and I'm running out of patience. With each passing month I'm also isolating myself even more from friends and family as their patience in offering support is running low too!
We had our first failed round of ICSI just over a month ago and are still waiting for our follow up appointment at the clinic. I think this has been a wait I didn't anticipate and we feel very alone. We've found a new clinic but need to wait 3 weeks for our consultation then will need to wait until after Christmas to start treatment as they close over the Christmas period.
Every month for the last two and a half years has been consumed with waiting, waiting for my period then for ovulation to give it another go before another heartbreaking period arrives! My life has been consumed by my menstrual cycles and I can't remember a time when my period was just an annoying monthly (uncomfortable) few days instead of the reminder of my failure every month!
I'm sorry to completely moan but I just feel like this is never going to end (it's not helpful that I've started yet another unwanted period today which brings with it irrational hormones to add to the party!) so I'm sure I'll pick myself up again tomorrow and carry on but today is just one of those days where I can't stop crying and I can't see a way through this bloody awful journey!!
Love to all you amazing women (and men) xx