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So this happened yesterday...

I've not posted on here for a while, I decided to try a few months of not really thinking about infertility so had a little break. And generally my mind has been occupied by other things.

Until this cropped up. And now I am so so scared. It was totally unexpected and I feel I should be so much happier than I am. When I told hubby we both cried. Cried because we are frightened...I just don't want my body to fail me again. I'll be calling my consultant's secretary today, unfortunately consultant is away for whole of August. But I'm just feeling I need some sort of reassurance that I will get through this.

This has come off the back of my second round of Clomid. Didn't try on first round because my tummy felt really uncomfortable around ovulation. This time I had no symptoms and in all honesty I had presumed the Clomid wasn't working this month.

Why can't we have a crystal ball?!

Sorry for the moan. Husband and I have talked it over and over yesterday but I've been awake now since about 3am and need to vent it somewhere. So scared πŸ˜”πŸ™

xxxxx

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Congratulations! Just wanted to wish you loads of luck. Take a day at a time, that's all you can do xxxx

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Leesalou

Congratulations Hun, xx

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_MrsC

Firstly, congratulations! What a surprise. Secondly, I think it's to be expected to be nervous as it is a surprise and also you had tried to switch off from the whole ttc thing. I hope the news settles in and you both can begin to be excited but do it in your own time. Finally, how utterly delicious to have this as your own perfect little secret. No hospital procedures, just a conception out of the blue. What a wonderful blessing! Enjoy having this special time with your husband when you know something wonderful albeit terrifying. Sending a big hug. xxx

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Lynnr54

Congratulations! I think being scared is a natural reaction, especially on this site after it being such a journey to get your BFP. Would you feel comfortable seeing someone other than your normal consultant? If not then it's not too long to go until September so hopefully you'll see them soon.

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Tugsgirl

So understandable, a natural reaction. Congratulations xx

Your emotions are totally understandable. I hope it's a smoother ride from here πŸ’™

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Tw1986

Aw congratulations Hun and enjoy it you are definitely pregnant, and we all feel nervous because it takes so much to get to that point xxx

Massive congratulations!! It's natural to be scared just take it day by day xx

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ch319

Oh congratulations it's fanatic news. Give a it a few days to settle in. It's such a huge shock when you have waited years for this to happen it can be overwhelming but you must take the time to enjoy your pregnancy too

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Fredaflintstone

How exciting and nerve wracking too. Take it one day at a time. Wishing you all the very best xx

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Jonesjp

Congratulations hunny x x x

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London7

I think your reaction is totally understandable and natural. Pregnancy after infertility is scary! Don't put any pressure on yourself to feel a certain way - it will happen naturally in time as you grow more confident. Congratulations!! X

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Cinderella5

Congratulations! Must be really scary but just go easy and take a day at a time! Well done xx

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City74

Congratulations! I think it is normal to feel scared and apprehensive but it is good news and I really wish you all the best for a happy and healthy pregnancy. Take good care of yourself xx

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Amanda86

Congratulations πŸ™‚ As others have said it's completely natural to feel scared. Good luck with the rest of your pregnancy 😘 Xxx

Congratulations x

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AllWeNeedIsluv

Congratulations to you both hun. Hope everything goes well and hopefully you'll start to enjoy this soon. I know Id be feeling like you if I get a bfp. Take one day at a time try not to think too much. Lots of love xx

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sarahlovs

Hi all, sorry it's been a while for me to reply. I must thank you all so much for your calm and reassuring words. I've had a busy weekend so I've been able to distract myself a bit, and next weekend we have decided to pay privately for a 6 week scan. I've taken more HPTs just for more reassurance again and fortunately all positive. It just doesn't seem real and I just want so badly for things to go smoothly. Funny how we want something to happen so much and then when it does happen it's a whole new kettle of fish of worry. Wouldn't it be so nice to have a crystal ball! Thank you again even with this result I have great comfort from the support on here, you're all amazing πŸ’— xxxx

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