Going to be more chilled out....nope!!!!

Sorry just a little moan of frustration as I'm quite sure the OH doesn't want to hear it again. We've been to the clinic and are on the waiting list for IVF (although disappointed that the wait is at least 12 months as we're in wales 😩!) so last month I thought that's it, chill out about TTC your on the list, you'll get there eventually, or so I told myself. We also had HSG last month which was my last test and confirmed unexplained infertility. Now don't get me wrong in one way I'm glad it's unexplained as I don't have to go through lots of additional procedures that many of you ladies have had to, but it is damn frustrating when you know there is nothing wrong with either of you and my stupid body just can't get bloody pregnant! So back to trying to chill out... but then from the wonders of Google you read that you can be far more fertile after a HSG so I'd almost convinced myself that's it, this month we'll do it, there's nothing wrong with me, they have cleaned the cobwebs out it will be our month! Then AF arrives, heartbroken, I should know better, my own stupid fault for raising my hopes! But now the thought of having to wait at least 12 months, with the natural TWW after TWW , because with no explanation as to why it doesn't happen I just can't chill out about it and not track ovulation, because you just keep thinking it could be this month!! Sorry was supposed to be a little rant and has turned into a full blown pmt rant, probably as yet again one of my close friends has just announced she's pregnant again! Sorry to winge, just needed to get it off my chest!!! X x

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Bless you I know this must be so very hard. Any waiting during fertility treatment is just awful as you want everything to be done yesterday. I just wondered if there might be anything you can do to try and help things along whilst TTC naturally? There are loads of things you can try like eating organic, taking pregnacare conception, light exercise, getting your bmi to the right level ( not saying it isnt BTW! :) acupuncture.... I am sorry if you might have tried all these things already xxx

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Thanks for your reply hunny, tried acupuncture for a while and didn't really see any difference except lots of 💷 going out of the door 😀! Taking the vitamins and exercise everyday, don't drink caffeine and my BMI is 24, it's just so bloody annoying! I do need to loose a few pounds and I could eat better so I think I may need to concentrate on that a bit more otherwise I think I'll just drive myself nuts, I'm so so impatient, I thought I had my head around having to wait 12 months to start, but it feels like forever away! Time to book a holiday I think 😀!! I hope your doing ok bluewanderlust x x x x

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Hey, I totally understand your frustration I think waiting for appointments or to get started is one of the worst bits!

Is there anything you could concentrate on to try and take your mind off solely focusing on the IVF. When I was waiting I started going to the gym more and eating right (well most of the time lol) but I felt I could use that as my escape. I think a holiday is a must too 😆xx

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Hi E_05 your right I think I need to get some sort of extra hobby, I was thinking of giving Yoga ago, might help trim me up and chill me out a bit more. Just feels like we're forever waiting. I've started the holiday planning, just looking at flights for Sydney 😀😀 x x x x

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Yoga sounds good, have you tried acupuncture to help with relaxing/anxiety? Once you getting going it does go quick, sorry as I know that doesn't help you now. Wow Sydney would be amazing, definitely a great holiday to have before you start xx

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I tried acupuncture for a while to help things along but in never made any difference, I went to her as she was local, and she was lovely but as mad as a box of frogs so it didn't end up being that relaxing! Sydney is definitely going to be a good distraction 😀 x x

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Love yoga, I felt the same about acupuncture - a lot of money for not a lot going on!!

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I really feel for you. I am also on the waiting list but for ICSI, as we know the main problem is male factor infertility....whilst I was gutted to have this as a diagnosis I do appreciate the fact that it takes the pressure off trying to conceive naturally as this is very unlikely to happen...Although I can't help still being gutted each month when AF arrives. & the flipside of that is it virtually takes the hope away of conceiving naturally so means the wait to start treatment is made even harder. I, however, have been told our waiting time is approx 18wks & right now it's feeling pretty unbearable....so I can't imagine the thought of having to wait a yr. Of course I can give the usual advice of "concentrate on getting in the best shape you can, distract yourself, find a project to get involved in" etc but I'd be quite hippocrytical as I'm sat here browsing this forum, eating choc & feeling sorry for myself! What can I say...waiting sucks! Xx

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Hannah this makes me chuckle (the bit about food, not the bit about infertility!) as I am also sat here stuffing my face with white chocolate and feeling sorry for my self 🙄! I know tomorrow after I've slept on it I'll feel a bit better, it's just the timescale is so bloody annoying. Your right also, I don't know what's worse, knowing why your not getting pregnant or not knowing why your not getting pregnant, sucks all ways around! Glad you ladies are around makes the journey so much less lonely ❤️ x x x

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Lol glad I'm not the only one resorting to chocolate! Still feeling sorry for myself today - I'm allowing myself today to wallow but making a promise to myself to move onwards & upwards from tomorrow! Xx

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Hi Hun

It's so hard I tried focusing on my anniversary weekend and this weekend and our holiday and i removed myself from social media I kept myself out of the frustrating conversations of ppl who are pregnant and weren't even trying and yet it still hasn't happened for us either.

It feels so frustrating having to listen to other people's conversations of "this is my scan picture" and how sick they were feeling. I sit there feeling I don't care how sick I am I just want to know i have a reason to be feeling that sick. Or I scream at ppl in my head "you weren't even trying to get pregnant!"

I have just had my 2ww which was pure agony in itself. I was feeling positive I'd had loads of relaxing and stress free time was thinking all is going well and my period is late as it's normally very on time, so I take a test and get a BFN and then within hours, low and behold the pain and cramping starts and the ache in my back and then before I know it I'm dosing up on pills to avoid the pain of the cramps and AF arrives and I'm absolutely devastated. I want to cry my eyes out. I have to tell my hubby that the test was negative and see his disappointment. I actually sat there whilst in the throws of cramps thinking "why am I doing this? I think I'm just going to go back on my pill! And get rid of the pain.

I find it a real struggle not to get disheartened.

I hope you can find some sort of positivity and relaxation to focus your mind and keep you distracted xx

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Hi Hun, I know what you mean, I don't know if we're extra sensitive but just about everyone seems to be pregnant or just recently had a baby, there's no escape!!! Sorry to hear about your TWW, it really never seems to get any easier month on month! I think I'm going to try some yoga see if it will chill me out any!! X x x

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Hi. We are in the same situation. It is very frustrating. I keep thinking I will ring and see if there is anything we can try just incase (e.g. clomid) while waiting but have managed to stop myself so far as I know what the answer will be. We also booked a big holiday and have tried to keep busy at weekends visiting family/friends etc.. I have completely given up testing for anything and find this has really helped as I don't get as stressed out Xx

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Really sorry to hear your going through this. Buts its good you have written about it. im sure you will find loads of support here. 12 months semms like ages but honestly it will fly by. and i have heard this saying before if you keep thinking about it then its hard to get pregnant the more you want to be the more you are stressed. Theres nothing wrong with your body which is amazing news but yes you have o find ways to relax enjoy trying ttc . just think abut all the blessings you have in your life right now and we forget about these to easily and always tend to want what we dont have at the momment.which is natural.

Best wishes

x

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