Do miracles really happen?!

[hifer]

Am feeling unbelievably sorry for myself today! Af is due a week today and I have cramping and have eaten for about 4 people already today! I'm just so hungry. These are the standard symptoms I get every month.

I'm hopefully starting our first round of IVF next week but had a vague fantasy that, in a twist of fate, I would fall pregnant naturally just before I started. Looks like that's not going to happen. I should be happy that we are finally starting but instead I just feel sad and a bit hopeless. Thankfully I am aware that a lot of that is due to hormones.

I am absolutely sick of the 'unexplained' bit of unexplained fertility. Why can't it be explained?! It's the not knowing that is sending me completely around the bend! And the waiting of course. The months and months of waiting for it to finally happen.

Anyway onwards and upwards. This feels more like a 'dear diary' entry than anything else to be honest. Don't really need advice I guess but it feels good to have a rant!

xx

[Dutchie_chic]

Hi hifer, it definitely is good to write it down 😄 lots of luck and positivity for your upcoming cycle! x 💞

[hifer in reply to Dutchie_chic]

Thanks you

[Kiedy84]

Hi Hifer, I had the same fantasy! In fact in a day we signed the papers I was 5 days dale so..they took blood to check for pregnancy. Of course it arrives the following day. That was really cruel🙈

I have just started my first IVF also unexplained diagnosis was driving me crazy. Then I was happy I was diagnosed with Hashimoto's Thyroiditis but they never said this is the reason why..

Now if I am honest I worry they will discover something and unexplained will be explained.. we will know in the next month or so. Good luck with everything xxx

[hifer in reply to Kiedy84]

You just can’t win either way I guess! Thank you for the response and wishing you all the very best too xx

[PurpleLove19]

Rants are the best hun!

Reading this was like listening to myself.

Should be starting our first round next month if all goes to plan next week.

I’m ovulating this week and we have been having “one last try” because i would love nothing more than for this to happen the natural way.

This is just not my fairytale but unfortunately it’s the path fate has given us.

I’ve started to have negative thoughts like it’s all unnatural and it’s fates way of saying it’s not meant to happen but I think that’s the nerves kicking in.

I’m so scared- scared of all the poking pans prodding I have to do. X

[hifer in reply to PurpleLove19]

Wishing you ALL the very best. I know how you feel. I just want to have sex and enjoy it without the pressure!! Hoping all goes well with your cycle. Please keep me posted xx

[Hidden]

Yes it’s so tough. I am pending next steps and had the same thought about falling pregnant naturally before. I’ve done that before though and never caught yet. I have various problems but my official diagnosis is unexplained too.

It’s good to let those feelings out and this forum is a great place to do it.

Lots of love to you and best wishes for your journey! Xx

[hifer in reply to Hidden]

Thanks for your reply. Yes indeed it is. Wishing you all the very best on your journey too. So so tough xx

[hannahding]

Unexplained infertility is indeed very frustrating. I also had the same problem. However, IVF worked for us. I am sure it will work for you as well. Just stay strong and positive. Good luck to you. I hope things go in your favor. Sending baby dust your way.

[hifer in reply to hannahding]

Thank you. Staying positive all the time is so hard! So so pleased that it all worked it out for you. Xx

[Elynn]

It's all perfectly normal ....dream big. Miracles do happen. So many amazing ivf stories on here and google. All the best 😀