The end 😢

[Janer85]

I haven't wrote on here for awhile, trying to stop the baby thinking and try and just be ahappy. But got a letter this morning and we haven't received anymore funding which me and my partner expected, we have enough for a cycle, but we both don't know if we can put our selves through it again, my partner wouldn't like to adopt, I just feel heartbroken inside knowing I am probly not going to be a mum. Just hopefully as time passes, we might give it another go xx

[liz1985]

Hi honey..

I get your concerns believe me I do!! This is without a doubt the most difficult thing I have ever done however I feel that if it works it's worth every moment and even if it doesn't it was still sort of worth it because then I can move on Truly knowing I have tried everything I could.. it sounds to me like you need a little more time before making your final decision but just wanted to wish you every luck in world with whatever you decide xxx

[Janer85 in reply to liz1985]

Thankyou so much, and I think your right, we just don't know if can go through the pain of it not working again as it's been so hard and my partner doesn't want it to come between us. It's so unfair on us couples who struggle, such a hard journey xx

[liz1985 in reply to Janer85]

Me and my partner are talking now about tomorrow when our embies are thawed we have paid so much for this cycle can't afford another sooo scared so I know what you mean!! It's so unfair and hard on us ladies honey by the way I noticed your username I think we were both born in 85 lol seriously honey good luck with whatever it's not for anyone to tell you what to do you know what's right for you just be kind to yourselves and each other xxxx

[Janer85 in reply to liz1985]

Yes, was born in 1985 😊And thankyou really means a lot, it's so scary isn't it. I wish you all the luck in the world, and really hope everything goes well for your transfer xx

[bluewanderlust]

Hi I just wanted to say it made me so sad to read your post as you sound totally heartbroken and worn out to be honest by the whole process. I think you need to give yourself some time to decide what to do next. Thinking of you and wish you luck in whatever you decide xxx

[Janer85 in reply to bluewanderlust]

Thankyou, and I am. I feel so drained mentally. Just hope this isn't the end. Xx

[Hidden]

Just wanted to send you a huge hug, and wish you all the best in what ever you decide xx

[Janer85 in reply to Hidden]

Thankyou xx

[Hidden]

Hey

This journey is totally unexplainable.

We are over the 40 mark had 3 failed new fresh cycles using own eggs, success 1st cycle using donor egg sadly lost him at 17.5 weeks, 2 failed FET cycles ( same donor new cycle) and here we are contemplating going again for the last time.

It's never going to be a decision you make easily and just when you think you have made the decision you change your mind again. We are not rich or even well off probably spen't about 25-30k in treatment and still....

Proud of the fact that I am lucky to be a mummy to an angel, just celebrated what would have been his early 1st birthday.

Nothing will prepare you for the rollacoaster of DREADED IVF. Take your time and be kind to yourself xxx

[Janer85 in reply to Hidden]

That is soo soo true, I don't know how you have carried on, it takes so much strength. I think me and my partner are just so scared of it not working again, and the uncertainty of it not working it's terrfing. I wish you all the best in your decision on what you do next xxx