Shit luck

[HannahJas]

So after over 2 and a half years of ttc and never having a positive test, finally got the positive test a few weeks ago. Worked out about 5 weeks pregnant. My world lit up, so ecstatic after all of the trying and heartbreak etc. This was on the Friday. Then on the Sunday early hrs of the morning had crippling pain, then started bleeding when I went to the toilet. Devastated and petrified I was loosing it I went to the docs on the monday, nothing they could do as I was only 5 weeks, went back a week later, the pain had passed but still bleeding when going to the toilet, had done another positive test so just thought might be having a bit of general bleeding. He sent me to epads and on the tues bad both external and internal scan and had the devastating news that they couldn't find any sign of early pregnancy. My world once more collapsed. They also thought that they had found a dermoid cyst on one of my ovaries. I thought perhaps this could be the cause of my infertility. Had blood tests done as I was still showing a positive test so wanted to check my hcg levels. Was told more than likely miscarriage possible ectopic pregnancy and had to go back on Thurs to have another blood test to check hcg levels again. I got the phone call around 5pm to say they wanted me to come in asap as it was an ectopic pregnancy but as I was at Wembley seeing Adele I couldn't go till friday. They were very twitchy about this saying if I had any pain etc to dial 999 straight away. I didn't suffer from any pain or anything abnormal so went to epads when we got home on friday. Didn't have any pain at all while in the hospital but they did the op that evening just in case. When I came round they said that I had been very lucky as it had ruptured therefore they had to remove my left faelopeion tube along with the pregnancy. Also they found out I have rhd negative blood just to add to everything else. So now I'm at home recovering, my husband's gone back to work 200 miles away and I'm here thinking great just more shit luck. Got an appointment at the fertility clinic at the end of the month which was made before my pregnancy and not sure what they're going to say now as having an ectopic pregnancy drops your chances anyway never mind if you have issues anyway.

Sorry for the massively long lost just needed to get it all out there somewhere!

[misswinky34]

I'm sorry for everything you have gone through. ❤ your in the right place to get it out ❤❤

[sunshineyellow]

So sorry to read your story x

[Tugsgirl]

I can imagine the euphoria you must have felt over your positive test only for your world to come crashing down not long afterwards. I'm truly sorry for your loss. I wish you much luck on your journey 🍀 xx

[_MrsC]

I'm so sorry. What an awful time you've been through. I'll be praying for you as you recover from your surgery and begin to come to terms with what has happened. xxx

[emu2016]

Oh love, big hugs xx

[HannahJas]

Thank you all xxx

[Mrsjj]

If it's of any comfort to you, my friend had something very similar and went on to have two lovely little girls very soon after she lost one of her tubes x

[Clare_lou]

I'm so sorry for your loss and everything you've been through. Try not to give up hope. Thinking of you xx

[Music1]

I completely understand your need to 'just write' and get it all out. It's heartbreaking. Reading your post made me feel like I was reading something I may have previously posted myself. I've been through it - not having an ectopic pregancy, but hearing 'congratulations, getting the BFP, having the high hcg bloods' only to end up back and forth to an epc and be told they couldn't find it and it's all over. You go from a 'high' to a complete 'crash of despair'.

I had to have both my tubes removed before I started ivf. My oh didn't initially want a baby so when we slept together we always used protection - much to my frustration.

Anyhow, I lost both my tubes in private surgery as they refused to do ivf without removing them. 4 failed ivfs later, and 1 early mc and like you, I feel 'drained' and empty. My oh just scoots out to work, tries to listen, gets angry and then just stays out as much as possible these days. As you go through each treatment it seems to throw up other things doesn't it... like rhd negative blood, and in my case 'Hashimotos' and high antibodies. I keep asking myself "I wonder what I will get next time".

I know what it's like to come round from anesthetic and hear news like that. I just wanted to say "you're in the right place to say/ share whatever you feel and I am so sorry for all the heartbreak you've been through". I had a close friend who went on to have a 'natural' pregnancy with one tube ... "her little miracle" and later she went on to have a sibling from ivf. Don't give up hope just yet. Hugs and best wishes xx

[Cinderella5]

Im so sorry to read about your experience, just heartbreaking! Just wanted to send a big hug!xx

[Persian40]

So sorry. If it helps professor winston says that actually ectopic pregnancy doesn't reduce your chances and does mean you are likely to conceive again normally too. Check out his posts on the genesis research trust site. Xx