I've done my stint on clomid and absolutely hated the whole experience. I gained a whole heap of weight during the process. My doctor arranged for me to have a laparoscopy to double check for blockages and it transpires that I have had a nasty case of endometriosis the entire time. Because this has gone diagnoses for so long I have now lost a Fallopian tube and an ovary and have been left with a damaged Fallopian tube. I am feeling sick with worry about our chances of conception now as IVF is our only hope. I feel like screaming. I don't understand why this is happening to us. It's just not fair. I feel so angry and terrified of failure. There is absolutely no purpose to this post other than to vent. I just want to be a mother.