Obsessive disorder

[Buffy21]

Hi All

Bit hard to admit but I think I have some sort of obsessive disorder. I worry constantly that I'm no longer pregnant!

It's all in my mind I know. I usually obsess about food and exercise and how I look but now I can't no longer control that I've shifted my focus to being pregnant.

It's not that I'm in denial as I want it to be but I view life as glass half empty all the time.

I took 4 tests had blood test at doc had a 7 wk scan and so last week I finally started to feel nausea despite not being sick. That lasted four days and since Wednesday I've felt no dfferent to normal. Ive had no bleedibg or cramping so no rradon to think anything is wrong.

I'm m like a junkie when I walk past a pharmacy as all I want is to buy another test and today the urge became too much so I've bough a 5th TEST which is still showing BFP. What is wrong with me?What is wrong with my mind?

It's really starting to worry me as I feel like I have no control over my behaviour and I know I'm being irrational but I can't control it. I'm constantly anxious.

Anyone has any experience or could advise me on how to handle this?Feel like I need professional advise 😢

[Tugsgirl]

I'm still testing! I stopped testing for about two days after my scan but I've started again and I'll probably keep doing it until my next scan on the 3rd of April! I have days where I feel pregnant (just generally a bit ropey, tired and crampy) and days like today where despite being sick, I feel generally fine! Sometimes my boobs hurt, especially at night in bed, sometimes nada! For some unknown reason I'm only sick every other day too?! I'm not entirely sure that my "morning sickness" isn't just caused because I feel I'm supposed to get it! Does that make sense? People think that once you get your bfp you should just be happy and grateful, and of course we are beyond our wildest dreams happy, but the journey just got a whole lot more stressful and worrying; the rollercoaster doesn't stop at the bfp! X

[Buffy21 in reply to Tugsgirl]

Thanks for that Tugsgirl. Glad I'm not on my own. Keep posting to help me stay sane xx👌😁

[Tugsgirl in reply to Buffy21]

You don't wanna go there lol 😂 😂 xx

[Tugsgirl in reply to Buffy21]

Feel free to drop me a line if you want to compare crazy 😜 x

[Buffy21 in reply to Tugsgirl]

Cheers i might just do that next time I have a down day. Took test today and got 9 wk scan on Wednesday so I've had my "fix" for this week!You know what I mean..thank you. You send me message any time too xx

[Tugsgirl in reply to Buffy21]

I'll get my next fix in the morning haha 😂 Can't wait to see your scan pic 😊 X

[Tugsgirl in reply to Tugsgirl]

Got my fix. Nice strong line 💪🏻 Decided to sleep bra less to test if my boobs still hurt, they do, big mistake haha. The things we do for our peace of mind 😂 Xx

[Nesfin]

Sounds normal to me! I had it so bad, the 2ww between bfp and the first scan was soooo bad, and I thought it would be fine after that but no! I was really nauseous on and off but it disappeared at 8+4, overnight! And I was reading all this stuff about getting all the symptoms so much worse with twins.. but no. Short-lived but terrible all day all night sickness gone, boobs bigger but not sore, no horrible mood swings, no lower back pain.. surely I had just imagined the entire thing? Maybe I was Bobby in Dallas and would wake up one morning to realise it was all just a dream? Maybe i would just fart my bloated belly? It gets easier hun.. now at almost 12 weeks I'm starting to believe even in the most stubborn parts of my brain that I'm pregnant. It doesn't stop me from being massively worried about something going wrong but I've accepted it's not a dream. And it might not be a nightmare. Hang in there and vent all you like. You get all the professional help you need from here 😉 PM anytime xoxo

[Tugsgirl in reply to Nesfin]

Ah man! Are you telling me I won't even relax after the 12 week scan? 😂😂 I had promised I would after the first one, and I did for about two days.. now I promise myself I'll be better after the next one (@ 8 weeks in just over a week). I can see a pattern emerging here lol X

[Nesfin in reply to Tugsgirl]

I'm only having my 12 week scan at 13+2 so I'll let you ladies know 😂😂 But seriously like I said, it does get easier.. promise. But as my mum said "welcome to the life long worrying"! Think she's right 🙈 xoxo

[72cloud9]

I think it's only normal to want to keep wanting to check everything still ok when u have been on such an epic journey to get to this point!! I think just do whatever makes u feel better xxxx

[Buffy21 in reply to 72cloud9]

Thank you..slighy calmer today and back to believing I am pregnant. Scan again on Wednesday will keep me sane lol xx

[72cloud9 in reply to Buffy21]

Oh brilliant glad u r feeling better and not long til Wednesday!! Xxxx