I am new to this forum and have eventually decided to post something online after years of looking things up and scouting forums ( you know how it is!).
My gorgeous little boy is 4.5 and we have been trying for a second for the most part of that, say 4 years. After investigations it turns out that although I am ovulating, I have 1 inexplicably blocked tube (no other problems) and so as it could not be unblocked with various procedures I have been prescribed 6 rounds of Clomid to give things a boost. IVF would be the next option but I really don't think I could take it, especially as it is further complicated by us needing to travel away for it ( we live on an Island).
I have more recently realised, especially since my little boy has started school ( he had to start when he had only just turned 4 that so much time has passed, maybe I should just move on and let it go. As my husband says, it is like feeling sad for something that has already not happened. By the time a second child started school now, my first would be on his way to highschool. Such a gap changes things significantly.
Has anyone else with secondary fertility found any ways to cope and "let it go"?
I have 2 rounds of Clomid left and sometimes I feel like throwing them in the bin I am so sick of it all and sad and each month with the predictable despair / relief / positivity / hope / caution / planning I have had enough emotionally.
My husbands works 12 hour shift including nights so that makes things extra difficult so it's not straightforward as to just cracking on and taking the final 2 rounds. With that it is probably unsurprising that I was prescribed the Clomid last spring and have only decided that 4 months out of nearly 12 it's been worthwhile taking them!
Every other person I know who has a child around my son's age now has their second or is about to.
Also my brother and sister in law announced this week that they have a baby on the way.
Aghh I just feel so pissed off! Secondary infertility is a unique pain. If there was a pill I could take just to let it all go I would.