I am the mum of one beautiful 3 year old daughter. We have been trying for a second for 18 months with no success. Every month gets more difficult, more painful. The cycle of hope then devastation, depression then hope again. I have so many overwhelming feelings, guilt, anger, sadness, pain and I don't know what to do, or who to talk to. My husband seems so much more content to wait and doesn't understand my pain. We have been to the doctors, they have referred to the infertility clinic but warned us there was no chance of getting IVF on the NHS when you already have one healthy child. The doctor also said we should just keep trying and it would probably just happen for us. I want so much for a second child, i feel like there is this aching gap inside me, and long for a baby to hold. I just need people to talk to because I feel so alone and so full of anguish.