I'm new here and I'm hoping you can help me through my fertility journey. I've had all the test, been through the lap & dye (my tubes are clear but I have endo on the bladder) and now on the waiting list for IUI Treatment from NHS at Monklands Hospital in Motherwell, Scotland.
I just don't know what to expect or how this is all going to affect me. I have suffered from depression in the past and I'm scared this journey will bring the depression back or effect my relationship (it's a great relationship, but I'm scared I will drive him away with my moods)
I've always know there was something not right with my fertility. I came off the pill at age 21 and never fallen pregnant - at the time i thought nothing of it. But now I'm aged 33 and with someone I love and want to have children with and I can't, it's just not happening naturally for us. My Partner has children from another relationship and all his test were excellent, so I feel the focus is on me and I blame myself for us not being able to have a child naturally.
2 of my best friends have announced they are expecting (1 is 9 weeks and the other is 18 weeks). I've never felt happiness and jealously like it before. I'm happy they are pregnant and want only the best for them but I also feel insane jealously, that they're pregnant and I'm not.
How does everyone cope with the rollercoaster of emotions and having treatment? As mentioned above I have suffered from depression in the past. It took years to get through it and get to where I am now. My worry is that I will drive my partner away or he will end up hating me. I worry about all the hormones I will have to take and how the will affect my moods. I can snap and I'm easily irritated under pressure. I love him and I don't want to loose him.
Is there anyone else on here from Glasgow. What have your experiences been of IUI. did it work?
I have so many more questions. These will follow in time, I'm sure.
Please come say hello and tell me of your stories.
Thanks, Nat x