I'm back, anxious is an understatement 😫

Hey everyone..... well here I am again. This time last year I was announcing some awful news, I went into early labour at 24 weeks and lost our little girl Esmae 😒.

We've had our second round of ICSI last month (after our wedding) & again we got a BFP. I'm currently 6+2 waiting for my first scan next week.

I should be over the moon (which I want to be) but I'm filled with dread, all i can think is something bad is going to happen, my doctor has signed my off work for 2 weeks due to very bad anxiety & unable to sleep.

I'm back at Liverpool women's hospital tomorrow so hopefully they'll be able to offer some support.

Cathie xxx

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  • Sorry to hear what you have been, got everything crossed that this is your rainbow baby β€οΈπŸ’›πŸ’šπŸ’™πŸ’œπŸ’—

  • Thanks lovely πŸ™πŸ» X

  • I'm so sorry for what you've been through and totally understand the anxiety. BFP after a loss is actually terrifying as well as amazing.

    Hope the appointment today goes well and keep going and putting time behind you. What you are feeling is perfectly natural so don't try to 'should-guilt' yourself.

    Good luck xx

  • Thanks huni, just been reading your post, you sound like you've been through the mill & back again. So pleased you're now 15 weeks. I love this site because you know it's not just you going through the tough times, always nice to hear a happy outcome. Good luck with your little bundle of joy, I hope the sickness eases off soon xx

  • Thank you. Fingers crossed for your scan. Feet up! xx

  • Oh so much love and luck to you xxxxxxxx

  • Cathie so sorry to hear of your loss you are incredibly strong to be trying again and I'm so pleased to hear you got a BFP again, nothing I can say will ease your anxiety just know that we are all thinking of you and are here to support you whenever you need us xxxx

  • So sorry to hear ur little one is an angel πŸ˜‡ its going to be so hard not to worry with ur β€πŸ’™πŸ’šπŸ’›πŸ’œ baby just try take everyday as it comes hunnie my prayers are with u try to rest as much as possible xxxx

  • Oh my word what a journey you have been on. How very brave to have a second round and so sorry to hear you lost your daughter. Wishing you all the best. I hope the time off work really helps to reduce the stress levels and support is offered.

  • Wishing you lots of luck xxxxxx

  • Xxxxxxxxx

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