Everyone around me is with big belly's talking about things they need to get, things they have got, baby showers, birthing plans.
So I ask Y NOT ME.
That first moment when you get a BFP, that butterfly feeling and giddiness to say I have done it, we are having a baby....
At work it's all baby, at home my niece is pregnant it's all baby, went to the hairdresser it's all baby, there she was talking away about the pending birth in April so excited she was.
I felt so bad as I was so jealous, I want that feeling, I want the anticipations. I feel angry because it's not fair, I want to shout at them I don't want to hear it because I can't get there and then I feel useless totally useless a cat can have kittens and I can't even get pregnant....
And yet the road continues and the journey continues we fight to have another cycle and it's always the last go just with that little hope "it only takes 1".
So I hold onto that saying and hope even though the eggs are not Mine that this next round this next hope this next cycle it really will be the one.
Don't give up hope ladies somethings works in miracles and others with persistence xxx