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So I don't really post on here much again...
Try to stay clear but every now and then the urge to take a look at how everyone is doing takes over me.
We had 2 failed FET cycles Jan and Feb this year from the same donor that gave us our 1st ever BFP in the first batch, but sadly had him early and lost him last year. Then she gave us another 3 eggs which we went on to have transfereed but didn't take.
Been kinda offfered a life line in terms of going again and having a fresh donor but I can't seem to get my head around if I want to do this anymore. Our relationship has taken a massive dive and we are struggling to get through these months as he will be 1 on the 4th July... so my heart breaks every time. My younger sister is pregnant with a Abby she didn't even want and I can't seem to take part in it.
Woman at work are pregnant and that's all the chat I seem to be having.
Am 42 and my story so far is
2 x M/c
1 x Eptopic
3 x fresh private cycles own eggs = BFN
1 x DE = BFP = Lost at 17 w
1 x new cycle same donor 2 x FET = Negative
Had my cards read 1 said I will succeed and the other said never in a month of Sunday's give it up.
How do I make this choice part of me wants to the other says enough is enough...
Don't know why I am even writing this post as only I can make the decision.
Anyways for those that have had joy keep being lucky and I wish you well.
Sadness means you are stronger than you think
2ww ladies be paitient and hang onto hope
Starting point... it's a journey that will change you.
Enjoy the sun ladies and gents xx