It was my test day today and sadly, it was a negative. I feel so sad, disappointed and that my body has let me down.
However, I thought what I could do to improve my chances next time - I have another 2 tries left, I've heard Acupuncture is good but costly. I'm wondering why they didn't suggest IVF at the beginning to see what the quality of my eggs were like, for all I know they could be too old. Maybe they try DI/IUI first when using a donor.
I then rang the hospital with my result and spoke to the nurse about ordering some more medication, the nurse seemed to think that I should of had my period my now and if it's not come within the next 5 days to do another test! Going by the way I feel, I think it must be near as I'm feeling rather ratty.
Like a lot of people, I do wonder - what if I can never have a child of my own, what then - what do I have, nothing. I'm having to stay with family in order to pay for my treatment, I can't get a job due to all the appointments I have at the hospital and I'm lonely too. I want to see a future but I can't.
Will keep going I guess and see what happens but right now I'm on a downer xx