Feeling emotional

[Anghun]

Well it looks like it was not meant to be ! Had a negative result this morning after the horrible 2ww! We have one more go , no frozen to use so dreading the egg collection again as I was sick as anything last time I am staying positive and it will all be worth it in the end!

[Hidden]

Oh sweetie I am so so sorry to hear that the ivf was not successful this time for you.. This time of year probably makes it even tougher for you I've never been through ivf but I can imagine that you must feel absolutely devastated.. I struggle when my period arrives every month and that's just trying .. An ivf fail must be horrendous poor you Allow yourself to feel these emotions and try not to bottle em up.. Perhaps some counseling might help you both come to terms with this disappointment.. When you are feeling ready physically and emotionally maybe see your clinic and see if there is a reason why it was not successful and if they can do something different to improve your chances next time.. I hope you feel better in time and in time it will feel starts to feel less raw., take care lovely maybe next year will be your year Big hugs X

[Anghun in reply to Hidden]

Thank you done a lot of crying today , it is lovely to have all of you hear with your kind words xx

[Hidden]

Sorry for your news. I think I know how you feel- my OTD is Monday but the impatient side of me can't wait til Monday and it's definately not looking good. It's our only chance as I am a poor responder, and this is our second round with no reserves. X3 clinics have told me they wouldn't treat me as I'm not a candidate for IVF. Very sad. Good on you for remaining positive, I feel a bit numb- but I guess Monday will be the official day. I just couldn't face waiting til Monday, testing then heading off to work! I had to prepare myself for the pending result.... Lots of love XXXXXX

[Hope23 in reply to Hidden]

Hey. Sorry to hear you're in a turmoil about test day. You could do the test Sunday, I'm sure one day won't make that much difference. You could always follow it up with another test few days later. It's the hardest time for sure. Stay upbeat if you can. Loads of ladles have thought they weren't going to get a positive and the have. Wishing you all the very best of luck. Hoping you'll get that positive xx

[Hidden in reply to Hope23]

Thanks honey. I had a bit of a cry this morning and feel a bit better. I'll retest on Monday. I haven't told my husband I've already tested, as I think he wanted me to wait till Monday, but I just needed to be prepared. Hope you're doing well and feeling ok about January. Out of interest how long prior to transfer were you on progesterone / estradial for? I started taking estradiol on ET day and I'm wondering, well over thinking things really. Thank you for your reply and hope you're doing ok. Lots of love & Happy Christmas XXXXX

[Hope23 in reply to Hidden]

I started progesterone pessaries the day they defrosted my eggs. So then I had 5 day transfer. I'd been on oestrogen patches for roughly 4 weeks before transfer. My next transfer will be end of February just cos of the way my cycles will fall in December and January.

Wishing you loads of luck. Merry Christmas to you too xx

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Hi sweetie. I'm so sorry to read this today. Am so upset for you. Don't think about next cycle just yet. Take time to come to terms with this first. Otherwise you will just overload yourself. When your ready to. Ask your clinic about a endo stratch. Apparantly it helps to encourage the womb to heal therefore helping embryo to stick. I know how this feels. I have made the decision today to stop coming on here for a bit. But will still be thinking of you. Take care and lots of love. Xxxxx

[pm27 in reply to Hidden]

Hi piglet,

I'll be thinking of you and wish you all the best.

[Anghun in reply to Hidden]

Hi piglet thank you for your kind words xx

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Hey honey

Take care and when your ready come back will miss you.

Xxx

[Hope23 in reply to Hidden]

Look after eachother. Be kind to yourself lovely. Xx

[Anghun in reply to Hidden]

It is very hard not to be impatient , the things that go through our heads at times likes this is crazy ! Sending big hugs and fingers crossed it is a positive xx

[Hope23]

Hi. So sorry it didn't work this time. As you say maybe it wasn't meant to be. My motto has become day by day, hurdle by hurdle! That's all we can do in this crazy roller coaster. And yr right it will be worth it and persistence is the key! Take care xx

[Anghun in reply to Hope23]

Thank you hope x

[Hidden]

Im so so sorry to hear your news. I wish you all the luck in the world with your next cycle and really do hope it works for you next time around. Never give up in hope lovely some day your wish will be answered and your have an Angel watching over you. Sending you lots of love and hugs XXX

[Anghun in reply to Hidden]

Thank you Inhopeofababy , I feel a load better just having you guys here xx

[PY987]

So sorry to hear this Hun but like you said it will be worth it in the end. Take your time to get over this and then go back and everything crossed it works next time x x

[Anghun in reply to PY987]

Thank you py987 xxxx

[pm27]

I'm really sorry to hear it was negative. Mine was negative 6 weeks ago, it didn't seem fair after everything I'd been through for it to have failed. We too have no frozen embryos so will be starting again. It's been a very tough few weeks but I am feeling more positive now.

Wishing you all the best.

[Anghun in reply to pm27]

Thank you pm was that you first cycle to fail on ? I am going to have a bit of a break to get my head together before the next one x

[Hidden in reply to Anghun]

Recommend the break mine as negative 4 weeks ago still painful and every now and then want someone to blame....I get by hoping that there was a reason it didn't work and this time.next year we will be l waiting on delivery.

Baby dust to you all. Xxxx

[Anghun in reply to Hidden]

It is painful I think I will be blubbering for a long time xx

[pm27 in reply to Anghun]

Yes it was our first cycle. After finding out I just wanted to get on with a second round but needed the break to recover emotionally. I'm getting there and can now think about starting our second round, probably in January.

It's OK to blub, I've done plenty of crying but it is getting easier.

Sending you lots of love.

[Hidden in reply to pm27]

Hey honey

So glad.your feeling more.positive

When do.you start again? Are you. Going with same clinic?

Awwww am glad for you n hubby xxx

[jenny34]

Take care, sending lots of love xxx

[Anghun in reply to jenny34]

Xxxxx

[Kizza07]

I am exactly the same hun my first cycle ended in a negative result i also dont have any embryos left so having to go threw it all its been a tough time speaking to all the ladies on this site has kept me going thank u all xxxxxxxx

[Anghun in reply to Kizza07]

Sorry to hear about your negative result kizza , thank you for your reply and yes this site is amazing x

[Hidden]

Hi anghun, i had a failed cycle in august and im still recovering emotionally, i smile, i talk when i am around people, but i noticed its a different case when i am on my own.... it takes time so try and be positive.. this forum has given me so much support, as the only people who have been through it can only understand.

i take everyday as it comes, cannot start another cycle until mid next year, (nhs, and its waiting time i guess) so trying keep myself sane and positive.

[Anghun in reply to Hidden]

Sorry to hear about your negative Shirley , I notice it more when I am on my own I think more about things and end up having a good cry but like you said stay positive and all the best for your next cycle xxxx

[Hidden]

I did my test this time last year and it was negative so I know how you are feeling. Don't threat about your next egg collection. For now you need to take care of yourself especially emotionally. I would definitely recommend a follow up appointment with your clinic if you haven't got one already it really helped us made our next decision. Also fertility counselling has really helped us too. For now just take one day at a time. Wishing you all the very best. Tasha

[Anghun in reply to Hidden]

Thank you tasha yeah we have a follow up appointment in 4-6 weeks they said so just going to enjoy Christmas with my husband and go away for a few days together to chill out after everything xx