*UPDATE: brown turned to light pink turned to red this morning. My third miscarriage š
Hello,
Iām not having the best of days, mentally. I think I am just so very triggered by this pregnancy, itās bought back so many painful memories of my first pregnancy for some reason and this time I donāt have the safety net of my IVF clinic as it was a natural surprise (after 17 months of trying) pregnancy.
Tonight Iāve just had a little bit of brown mucus in my knickers, and ever so slightly when Iāve wiped. I know thatās a sign of old blood and I know it can mean lots of things but Iām fearing the worst and feel like my gut instinct is telling me this isnāt good.
I donāt have a midwife yet, and tbh the GP hasnāt been the most helpful since me telling them Iām pregnant and my history. Iām wondering whether to try and get my early scan scheduled for the 8th moved to tomorrow just so I know whatās happening.
There isnāt much point in this message, I just need to write it down because Iāve no one to really talk to about this. My husband is great but heās anxious too given what weāve been through previously. Xx