Im 21 years old and was diagnosed with endo about twelve months ago after under going multiple scans, blood tests, cameras and laperoscapys along with multiple pain medications and visits to a pain specialist. I am struggling to deal with both the physical pain and the emotional strain of living with endo. I've now undergone four laperoscapys in the last two years or so, what I struggle with most is the feeling of relief I have for roughly two weeks or so post op and then having the pain start over again and quickly become far more intense than it was prior to the surgery. Does anyone else experience this? I am scared that the endo is going to ruin my relationship with my boyfriend of five years as intercourse is almost unbearable due to the pain, despite his reassurance that our relationship is based on more than that I appreciate that he has needs that I cannot necessarily fulfill any more. He doesn't seem to understand this concept as I think he is under the impression that my endo may go as quickly as it came (this all began when I woke up one day in a lot of pain and was throwing up etc) and despite my efforts to try and explain that this is likely to be long term I still feel as though he doesn't understand that. I have recently struggled my way through a law degree and have never been prouder of myself than the day my results arrived telling me I had achieved a 2.1 as I had spent around nine months over the period of the course in and out of hospital or too ill to attend. Despite achieving what I feel is a miracle I fear that if I struggled with my degree then becoming a solicitor is an impossibility as I cannot begin to fathom how I will manage to work the hours required when I am constantly exhausted.
I had convinced myself that I was fine, the endo wouldn't beat me and that I didn't need support. However, I have finally come to except that in truth I am not fine and I am struggling to accept that I will be in excruciating pain and constantly exhausted permenantly. I am hoping that if I reach out to others who understand how it feels then maybe I will once again find the strength I feel I have lost recently.
Sorry for the long and rather depressing blog but I would really appreciate any advice anyone could offer me. Thank you for taking the time out of your day to read this