Flare up blues

[x_emily_x]

Hi everyone, thank you all for being a rock in my life, I love this community 💚 My last flare up I only had 3 days in-between and got really depressed but did some mental health work on myself and got through the holidays. I took extra good care of myself in the hopes I could have longer next time.

It worked and I had nearly 2 full weeks of feeling decently good. Im at the beginning of a flareup again now, and even though I'm so happy for achieving what I did and even decorated for my landlord (which was so nice to be active). I cant seem to help but feel depressed again. I'm doing my usual, prepping to make the next weeks easier, lighting some candles, doing my self care and symptom management, making some plans... but I still feel so confined.

I just feel this isn't enough for a person, I just feel confined idk lol

I'm not really sure what there is to say about anything of this, I guess I just wanted to get it off of my chest.

Thanks for listening xx

[Moon_maiden]

That’s good you had a better couple of weeks.

It’s those pesky hormones wreaking havoc again, try not to feel too depressed with it all. I used to get really tired, emotional or cross before a period, never knew what would happen 🤦‍♀️🙄

Hope you feel ok, but the forum is good for a chat or rant 🙂

[x_emily_x in reply to Moon_maiden]

Yeah the hormones definitely don't help 😕Tbf it used to be much worse pms than this for me so thank u for reminding me of that x

(I do feel sad about whats to come though) and I'm annoyed that I have to be in monk mode to get a few more good days 😕 but I do think your right, the hormones make you focus on the negative a hell of a lot more.

I'm okay enough lol ty xx

[KatDragon]

I hope it brings comfort to know you are not alone. I am on day 3 of a flare up and have been bed bound and in tears. I am thankful for our endo UK community as without it I would feel totally and utterly alone. It is hard not to be in despair when your life is so limited and you are debilitated in pain, with no cure, no end in sight and years of waiting for any support or treatment on the NHS.I am so glad you had a little window to do some great things like decorating. I think it is disgusting that we are left suffering in pain with no-one except this group for support. Be strong, keep going as best you can and just know there are people here who care and sympathise. Hope the flare up soon passes. x

[x_emily_x]

Thank you, that really fckn helps to hear 🥲 some things just suck. seriously thank god for this group 💗

I'm so sorry your so down as well. It is so hard but we have got eachother on here and I've noticed the best advice usually comes from people who struggle to take their own. That is exactly how I've felt and you aren't alone either lovely.

Have you got some self care stuff to help cope today? My cat is currently purring on my head and that coupled with this forum and some chocolate has made it better for me xx