Hi guys. Not posted anything for a while but I'm lying here wide awake with my mind in overdrive. I'm really worried about my relationship. My boyfriend and I have been together for 5 years, he has recently moved in with me which is huge as he used to work away and we would only see each other every second weekend. Having him here for good now is great in most senses as he used to feel terrible when I was having my bad days with endo cos he was never here. Now he is here, I think he is struggling as he didn't understand just how bad my symptoms are. I am unwell pretty much every day and I find him to be incredibly unsupportive. I took him with me when I went to see the specialist so he could get a further explanation into this condition but it didn't really help. We have no physical relationship due to the pain that I get after intercourse, but now the intimate side is struggling too because I think I am starting to resent him. I split up with him two years ago for a short period of time because I didn't feel any of this was fair on him, but he fought hard to get me back. Because of this, I thought he understood and wanted me anyway, so we worked things out but now I just feel we are two people living in the same house with no real connection anymore, and I'm really struggling with what to do. Talking to him just seems to get us nowhere as he is ok for a couple of days then it reverts back. All I get is "how can you be unwell AGAIN?!" or "stop moaning." I know he loves me but he doesn't seem to want to commit to me and I just feel I am an inconvenience. I know it can't be easy for him and I am insecure about it all, but short of going to couples therapy I don't know where to go from here. I'm so sorry about this long rant!
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