It was a bit of a let down and I'm more confused than ever...
He said upon review they don't think my bowel damage is a bad as they first thought due to the scans being read wrong the first time round...
I feel utterly violated he wasn't gentle at all he inserted a finger so roughly into my anus its still hurting now, my back and my left side are trying to kill me my actual hole feels like a train passed through it is SO sore!
I've still got to have a colonoscopy to view the length between the exit and the sigmoid section and he flicked a nodule which is why I think I'm in so much pain now.
I don't understand what's going on now. If my uterus is clear of disease and now their saying my bowel is too how do I have Endometriosis it doesn't make any sense! My PoD is still obliterated and my ovary is still attached to the nodule attached to my bowel but still they haven't been very clear with me and that makes me a bit sad and angry!
He said I'll probably still need a temporary colostomy bag and that again doesn't make sense..if my bowel doesn't need surgery why do I need the bag????
I need to wake up this feels like a bad dream. I'm gonna gave choice words for them in June honestly I can't cope with all of this I just want it to be over now no more operations, no more talking to doctors who play havoc with my life and no more tablets I've had it to my back teeth with it all