So it's been a long time since I posted on here.. in all honesty I've been feeling really depressed from the Endo issues and repercussions of having such a condition. I stupidly realised that the biggest help was this forum, not just for my own help but to help other ladies in the same situation.. so I'm back on board!
I've been feeling pretty down and lonely, as stupid as it sounds I used to have a lot of friends but since I started struggling with Endo I've noticed that I've lost most of them. Deep down I guess I don't blame them; while I've tried to keep in contact, I find that there are times when I get withdrawn and think "I'll message them back tomorrow, I'll ignore this call and call them back tomorrow" and the next thing I know it's 2 weeks later. I've also become 'that friend' that makes plans or says I'll go for a night out and then cancels the day before/on the day because I can't manage an outing or I'm in hospital again. So I guess I can see why I lost my friends and I suppose if people aren't there for me at my worse, they're not worth having. (I know this doesn't sound like the best 'friends wanted' advert, but I promise I'm not that bad now).
I've reached out to a few friends that I wouldn't ever want to lose and have reconnected, which is great.. but they've moved away from our area/settled down with partners and have kids/have busy jobs and I find myself in a situation where I want to be social and have friends but I don't know how. Making friends as a kid/teenager was easy, but what do you do when you're an adult? I feel like a lot of the places where you'd make friends require you to have a friend with you to begin with (who would make friends with the random girl sitting on her own in a pub, coffee shop etc). My work isn't the type of place where people meet up outside of the working week, except for the odd after work drink. I have a few hobbies that I'd like to get back into (dance, horse riding, museums, zoos).
Does anyone have any suggestions or advice for me please? I feel so stupid for having to ask advice on how to make friends at 25, but I feel lost and I guess I'm trying to be brave by taking the first steps to turning my life around and I'm hoping that there are other ladies that can relate to how I feel. I know that there's Endo support groups and meet ups, but I'd like to do something that's not just focused on Endo. Saying that, having friend with Endo would be great because at least they'll know what the struggle is like.