I finally had my second lap on the 16th of March this year, almost a year since the first one. Wasn't good news, my right ovary was stuck to the side wall, endo everywhere except my uterus and my right tube blocked and my left tube destroyed. I've been told that I have 8 months to get pregnant or they will take my left tube and have to have another lazer treatment. I am completely lost. I'm 18, trying to work as a teaching assistant and I am completely depressed. I've had 5 working weeks off due to everything happening (although 3 was signed off by my doctor) and I feel completely rubbish. My contract at the school I work at is ending in july, I highly doubt they'll keep me with the amount of time off and budget cuts, who the hell wants to employ me? I just seem like a lazy teenager who complains about everything and hardly comes into work. I've been on fluoxetine for about 6 months now and they don't seem to be doing much. I've wanted to start trying for a baby since last year but my boyfriend has only just agreed to it, I really don't know what to do. I've got an appointment with my dr on Friday, should I mention how I want to go on fertility treatment? I feel like the odds are highly stacked against me and I just want to be happy with a baby and a stable job and it's like that's all been ruined for me. I know I'm just rambling on and moaning but I find it hard to cope knowing that I have stage 4 endo, I'm 18 and that this isn't going to go away anytime soon.