Hi, this is my first post.
After a 9 year struggle of wondering what was wrong with me, searching the internet, trying different medications and begging my GP to help me, I finally know whats wrong ... so now what?
I spent so long fighting for an answer and now I have one I don't really know how to handle it or what to do with myself. Part of me is relieved that I finally have a diagnosis and is ready to take on this new chapter of my life and get all the help I can but the other half as been hit by the realisation that something really was wrong with me, it wasn't in my head or just the usual monthly period pains, I have Endometriosis grade 3.
During my battle to find out what was wrong I became a bit detached from the situation, like all the fighting would lead to nothing and all the tests would come back normal, this is what I expected so never really saw an end to this cycle. When I told my GP about Endo it was a long shot and I never really thought I'd get anywhere so when I was told that the possibility of me having Endo was highly likely I suddenly wanted to stop all appointments and pretend as if the situation wasn't happening.
To wake up after surgery and be told I do have this disease has left me feeling numb. I've reached the end of my battle, I know whats wrong but its not a good outcome as Endo is a battle in itself and has its own complications.
I don't know if any of this has made sense but I suppose to sum up how I feel is bitter sweet. I did my research, I told my GP I thought I had Endo and I asked for surgery, for me to get a diagnosis for myself has taken all my strength and I'm proud of myself for fighting so hard but now I am faced with a new fight and knowing I have this for the rest of my life scares me and I don't know how I will be able to summon the strength to start this new battle.