Okay, ive never wrote on a fourm before - ever, so bare with me lol.
For abit of background:
I have had a long history with Endometriosis, and was confirmed i had it when i was 16 after having problems starting at 10. When i lived in london, i didnt have the lap? i had an operation but im not entirely sure what it was i cant remember lol, anyhow, i moved up to newcastle and ive just kind of delt with it myself for the past few years. The pain is something i wouldnt wish on my worst enemy, but i have been able to work and get myself from A to B and hide things pretty well.
So ive been off for 3 weeks from my job due to my client going on holiday, ( im a carer - go figure)
And i have been in hospital multiple times, have an emergency gyne app, and i also have a lap and another ultrasound coming up in next few weeks/months (not a date yet) i have been in the worst pain EVER. i have been unable to get out of bed, let the dog out, go to the toilet without help, and just sat screaming and crying every day, im on the strongest of prescription painkillers and they do nothing.
So, i was due back to go to work on sunday, but unfortunately this is a new job for me ive only been here 2 months, and it is extremely physical, i do night shifts with the most activity between 6pm-10pm and then i have to be like the hulk at 5am-8am. Thats 14 hour shifts, and i have three sprung on me last Min starting tonight.
what can i do? i cant not work, i cant lose my job, trust me being up north the jobs are scarce and the only work ive done since i was 15 is work in care, but im in absolute chronic pain. I think im going to go in tonight, but should i tell my client how im feeling? if so im sure he will just say im unable to work there anymore, i cant afford to loose this, but i just am at an absolute loss at what to do. has anyone else had any experience with this? anyone have any suggestions? im sorry its such a long post, im just at the end of what i can handle right now. im in agony, but if im not careful, this disease could make me lose everything. Do you work? how do you cope? if it gets really bad do you just not work and starve, lose your house and give up on life? ..........