Cant go on like this anymore....

[poppet36]

My depression has hit an all time low and my soul as folded and given up. No independance, freedom, control over my life, no connections, responsibilities i dont want anymore that make me fill worse. Ive been suffering since i was bullied at school years ago and have been bullied ever since to be honest, i cant connect with people they just dont seem to accept me or like me. I just want to leave this world,i imagine a

Heaven of peace and no suffering. I want to be free............thank you for listening. I wouldnt wish this on anyone so i hope life finds you well.

[Kittykatxxxxx]

HI Poppet I can totally relate to this, I have written a post much like this ( I have been bullied all my life) I get to this point quite a bit if I am honest. Are you seeing a gp/ having any therapy at all. Sorry you feel so bad right now. You are not alone in this and it is highly unlikely that how you feel is a reflection of you as a person. I am sure you are a likeable person!

[poppet36 in reply to Kittykatxxxxx]

Thank you kittykat. I am doing cbt with no joy. Was on prozac for years with little effect. My gp is rubbish and thats me being very kind. There just isnt good help out there. X

[Kittykatxxxxx in reply to poppet36]

I know poppet it is naff! I am scared to go to my gp as they don't really believe me about my mental health as I hide it so well ! Could you try another gp. Btw I don't find cbt very helpful, it did not work for my problems at all. if you havn't tried there is other kinds of counselling that may help better .x

[poppet36 in reply to Kittykatxxxxx]

Thanks kitty...i think in going to go back to the doctors tomorrow but they are all rubbish who ever i see. X

[s4intees]

there are so many drugs today the doctors cant keep tabs on them.one doctor admitted to me he relied on his patients to tell him that they could not take a certain drug because the were taking something else that would react to it.you have to be very careful and read the leaflet that comes with the medicine.sometimes you think a medicine isnt working its because your already taking something that nullifies it. if you have been perscribed a medication ask your doc to check it works alongside any others you are taking