Hi everyone, I am new to this service. I found it as I was looking for call number for my GP to find help with my "depression". I havent been diagnosed yet and its very difficult for me to only admit that I have mental problems as I am nurse and love working with other people and helping them to find their way. For last couple of months I feel very down, demotivated and slow in everything I do. I dont even remember day when I was happy, smiling and simply enjoying my life. I feel like I am closed in box with no exit ways. Its affecting my personal and professional life and I am very scared of my future. Feeling so isolated with no family support-living in different country. I done few tests with results of severe depression where I need antidepresants but I am scared of sides effects, I know that some of them can slow you down even more. Does anyone here using any kind of antidepresants??