I've suffered from depression on and off since I was a teenager, I'm 36 now. I've been on so many different tablets, I came off citalapram about 7 weeks ago and I feel like I'm back to square one! I have a husband and 4 children and I feel like I'm missing out on there childhoods and l they will only remember me being miserable and shouting! Don't know if I should give in and go back on tablets. Feel like I will never just be normal!