I have numerous things I have to complete for my professional and personal growth. However, I find myself with no sense of urgency to complete these tasks. I don't push myself very hard and welcome any and all distractions. My attitude is one of whatever, it has been this way for years, and I've even stopped worrying about my attitude, after all the sky has not fallen in. But deep in my heart I'm fustrated by my don't care attitude. It's so unlike me.
I have sought help, but......
Its been hell living as a shell of my former self.