I am sorry. My next post was supposed to be optimistic and joyful. I wanted it to be heart-lifting and motivational.
Unfortunately, I am lady hoodoo and I act as a magnet to all disasters.
Is running my destiny? Or can I overcome my destiny of not being a runner?
I was (still am) ill again ;( so in total I am more ill than running. The programme schedule just slipped so badly for me. I am not sure what to do now. Start from kind of beginning / continue where I stopped / repeat the last run / give up ...
In occurs that for me it never rains, it pours
I am not healthy yet, and I should wait a couple more days to make sure that it is all fine. But how to motivate myself after yet another break. I think I will never get to the first big achievement W5R3. I tend to go as far as the beginning of week 5. You are all saying go for it, you can do it, believe in programme. But how can I believe if my schedule consists of more breaks than runs, due to this I don't run 3x per week, so my body is not used to it. The ones who follow my struggle know that it wasn't piece of cake for me: 1.5 month following the programme, 3 months break, 2 weeks following programme, 1 week break, 1 run (W5R1 - completed last Thur), now 1 week break again (may need a little longer).
I am crumpled.
I will not write a new post until I will finally do my W5R3. I've no idea when it will be. I'm not sure if I'll have enough inner strength and motivation to push it forward. But I don't want be the one who needs your help all the time without being able to give something in return.
I am sorry Bigfatsal that I cannot return the favour of motivating you. I hope your recovery will be fast and I wish you all the best. You are the runner, so you will run again. Take your time to heal. I'll do my best to support you along the way not only the programme, but also recovery. As I am becoming an expert in break times and coming backs