Just thought I would share my recent experience. Just when I think I am not an absolute beginner any more and gaining a bit of running confidence this happened.
I did it I went for a run with a proper runner. We both agreed to a leisurely 5k as an interim run as we both have running goals to achieve. Mine was a long slow run a couple of days later.
So off we trot - it felt ok, having a nice chat but I started to puff slightly. - mmmm I often get this in the first 10 mins. Map my run tells me first k was sub 5 mins. WHAT ,, I mention this to fellow runner who runs without any technology. I suggest we slow down, 2 k is 5 mins15. HELL. I can't keep this up. A second request to slow . 3 k at 14 mins. I am puffing and my leg hurts . Mmm. I suggest she goes on without me. I Finnish sub 30 mins, god knows her time, I couldn't even see her in the distance. It must be way under 25. MMMM. I felt hot ,bothered and tired but worried for the long run.
So Sunday arrives. Long run day, I trot off again- legs are heavy and tired. I did 2k and for the first time I stopped, abandoned the run and walked home. No achieving running goals that day, it should have been 10 k but what an awful run.
So I have spent the week reflecting. Thus is what I think:-
1 running requires you to know and understand your pace and capabilities. I pushed too hard just to keep up, I was stupidly competitive
2. Running is a mind game - goal setting is important. Sometimes those goals need to be small and achievable . This week was just to run one minute in each kilometres faster. I achieved that and felt great
3 I agonised over the bad run, thoughts like I can't, I didn't , I failed. Why. I did well on Friday
4. I ran on my own again this week - I felt better. It was nice to run with people but I think I need to be more specific about my abilities. Clearly I was nowhere near matched last run. I know how the conversation should go, next time. Oh my friend though it was a lovely run - beautiful, she was full of compliments and supportive, apparently I speed up going up hills and she slows dow!n !!!
In conclusion running is a constant challenge, it a journey with no final destination . Keep going folks , run through the bad times and enjoy the good.