I’m a single mother of 3 from Chicago Illinois. I’ve been pretty healthy all my life.. no allergies or diseases. I’m 5’5 - 115lbs (lost 5-10lbs since summer 2019 due to cancer). So this is my the beginning of my journey. I was experiencing rectum pain during summer of 2019. I went to my primary doctor and she said it was hemorrhoids. She provided a referral to a surgeon who was going to remove them since I was uncomfortable and basically just wanted to get rid of them. I had a hemorroidectomy on 10/15/19 which left me in unbearable pain. The pain was 10000x worse then it was prior to the procedure. I was in tears everyday because of the pain. I followed up with the surgeon 4x between October and December begging for an answer as to why I’m not healing and in so much pain. She literally had no idea why I wasn’t recovering and then referred me to a colorectal surgeon who could help figure this out. I saw him on 12/23/19 and he figured that I had an anal fissure and that is what was causing the unbearable pain. He gave two weeks to try a compound ointment and follow up. The ointment did absolutely nothing. We decided that anal Botox injections would be the next step. That surgery was performed on 1/30/20 - the day that changed my life forever. He found a golf ball size mass and sent out a biopsy. Waiting from 1/30 - 2/4 for the results was the longest wait of my life. On 2/4 he informed me that it is indeed cancer and we scheduled a MRI & CT to learn more about it. After receiving the results we found out that that it has spread to my liver and lungs. I’m terrified. I’m starting Folfox chemo treatments soon and would love any advice, support, input - anything. Thank you guys so much.