ok I just remembered that I have e mail and I had a zillion messages. Why? One memory, I forgot about my e mail. Two, I discovered Facebook from my new oncology group and found all my relatives hiding there. Now they are at my mercy. Also I forgot about my e mail because I got pneumonitis from zydelig was in the hospital getting three different antibiotics for 2 weeks and when that didn`t resolve the "problem" then I was sent to a larger hospital to have a lung biopsy to take a culture because they THOUGHT they saw something at bottom of one of my lungs and it has been a painful journey worse than CLL itself. I believe part of the memory loss is due to the pain killers I had to be on from the surgery since we just don`t heal as fast like other folks. They told me they would have results in couple of weeks which now have turned out to be much longer and nothing has grown in the culture. So the wait goes on. So far I was DX with organized pneumonia which is a fancy name for pneumonitis! I am on O2 as my level has hovered below 90 % and suffering pain from the incision sight around to the front over my liver. I hope to get some cancer free living in before the next blood test tells me my short "remission" is over. Then I will be back to deciding what to do next!!