Hello. I have irregular red lumps, pigmentation and wounds in one cheek because of an aesthetic procedure gone wrong.
I went to an aesthetic doctor friend to help with my acne scars only on one side of my cheek because I could see them on camera and was self conscious about them, and after a few laser sessions, he suggested subcision (using a needle to break the scar bonds that pulling the skin down and causing dents) and a radiesse (semi permanent, non-soluble) filler. The healing time was supposed to be a maximum of two weeks.
For whatever reason (a few doctors have said bad technique but I don't know whether assigning blame is useful now, and anyway they won't go on legal record) the radiesse ended up too shallow. So my cheek ended up with very large, bizarrely shaped red welts from irritation from the collections of radiesse,. After insisting for two months that this was normal, he tried certain treatments to reduce the swelling and discolouration. I'm not sure if it was time passing or that they worked, but the lumps in my cheek became smaller, but some of the white coloured filler became very obvious under the skin. He decided to burn those areas off with an ablative co2 laser and said that it should all heal over in 3-5 days.
Now it's been about three weeks and those areas are still healing wounds, in addition to the additional swellings from the original procedure. I've since seen other doctors who say that because of the wounds, very little can be done on the sensitive skin, and in any case, there isn't much to do but wait for the filler to slowly disintegrate by itself over the course of 18 months, and hope that no medical complications are caused in the meantime (there are a number that can result from foreign substances in your skin), and also hope that it doesn't leave lasting effects on my skin. One doctor said that part of my skin might never look the same again. I've also spoken to a lawyer friend who mentioned that while it is possible to sue, things like loss of earnings might be hard to prove because of the freelance nature of my job (just because I audition for something with perfect skin doesn't mean I might get it anyway) and might cause me trauma and cost me lots of legal fees in the meantime.
The doctor in question has expressed that he is sorry for everything and has given me some money for me to seek psychiatric treatment, as well as to pay for the other doctors I've seen. I've also had other people tell me that it doesnt' look so bad at the moment really when covered up, just like a pretty bad breakout on top of acne scars, and that there are people we know who have skin that is worse. Whether or not that is the case I've been suffering from ptsd, anxiety, depression, insomnia and have had suicidal thoughts almost daily. I do not want to go out socially, and have seen a pyschiatrist who prescribed xanax, remeron and stilnox to manage the above conditions, to what feels like middling success at best.
I am also seeing a counselor but unfortunately in my part of the world, there aren't people who specialise in the trauma from visible difference, and they often tell me to get over it, there's still different types of work I can do. I am aware that my disfigurement may not be as significant as others on this forum, but the feeling of loss is affecting me very strongly, perhaps because of my profession and that I am constantly seeing images of my friends, colleagues and even myself from certain angles that I have no confidence of showing anymore. I joined this forum because I could really use some support. My friends themselves I feel are a little hard pressed to know how to deal with me right now, and my spouse is rather exhausted too.
Any sharing, support or knowledge of medical professionals who could help, would be fantastic.