I suffer from depression and anxiety and fallen into an awful habit of binge drinking. I just can't have one drink. I'm an "all or nothing" kind of person and one drink leads to many. I wanted to quit because it's ruining my marriage but I never wanted to really quit. I just couldn't imagine not having alcohol in my life. But yesterday I scared myself I drank way too much at a pool party too quickly and when I came home I don't remember much I went upstairs and passed out in the guest room. My husband and I are at odds because I drank last Friday night and kind of embarrassed myself at a birthday party. I have made small efforts to quit but I have never fully committed to quiting. I REALLY WANT TO QUIT. I fear for my declining health if I continue down this path and I'm afraid I'm damaging my chances of being able to conceive. My husband and I have been trying for years to have a baby and for the first time feel it's my heavy drinking that's hindering our chances. I want to live a clean and healthy lifestyle and not crave alcohol. I want to repair my body and my marriage. I fear it's almost too late.