Abortion

[_lolarose]

So yesterday I had the second pill in order to terminate my pregnancy. It was a huge decision for me to make to have an abortion, but I weighed out the pros and cons of my current situation and I just couldn't cope with having a baby right now. Being a student and going into my second year at university with with no money and no stable job. Yesterday was probably one of the worst days of my life. I started bleeding around an hour after receiving the medication, and as the day passed on, gradually I experienced more cramps and blood etc which is Normal I assume. However, I am slightly worried. At one point I was in horrendous amounts of pain and I was honestly hysterical. I was so scared. My boyfriend was home with me to support me but he didn't know what to do he felt so useless he tried to help in every way that he could but i think it was quite overwhelming for him as well as he didnt understand how much blood and stuff there was gonna be. Blood was gushing out of me constantly in excessive amounts and there was a lot of blood clots which I was told would be normal. Additionally, my boyfriend went out and bought me extra thick extra absorbent sanitary towels, but even they weren't soaking up the blood. I found myself having to change my towel every 5 minutes and even when I was doubling up and using super absorbent towels I was still leaking. There was moments where it was light blood like a period, then suddenly out of nowhere I could literally feel the blood pouring out of me and soaking the towel. I was so horrified and honestly it traumatised me. I was not expecting it to be as bad as it was and I felt that the nurse didn't explain to me how much blood there would be. I even saw remnants of the poor little foetus which left me in hysterics. I'm sorry for the excessive amount of information but I'm only 19 years old and I am honestly scarred for life. I am so traumatised by the situation and I feel so depressed and down about it all. I feel so guilty and I don't know what to do with myself. If I had known that it was going to be as bad as that I never would have gone through with it myself. Today I am not bleeding as badly and the pain has gone down significantly compared to yesterday I'm still taking antibiotics for it. I hope whoever is reading this and is thinking of aborting please realise that it's not as easy as taking a pill and bleeding a little. I will never forget this experience and the fact that I went through it basically alone without my parents or anything knowing was horrible. Ensure that if you are aborting make sure there you have a supportive environment and someone to care for you and look after you ! Sometimes aborting is the best option for some people it is your own decision and your own body and I don't mean to put anyone off in any way!

[Speedychick81]

Please don't feel guilty you made a choice that was right for you x they estimate you shouldn't soak more than a pad an hour so if it does start back up please get your self checked over xxx

[H305]

So sorry to hear what you have been through. Thank you for putting the information out there to help others with their own decision. A close friend of mine said exactly the same thing that she didn't properly realise what it would involve. Take care.

[Bpas_1968 Partner]

Hi there

I'm so sorry that you had such a traumatic experience. Good that the pain has gone and and the bleeding has lessened. Did you have your abortion at bpas? If so I would recommend calling the aftercare line to talk through what happened. All the staff there are lovely and will be able to help. This is the number: 0300 333 68 28 (or [phone])

This is also a helpful webpage: bpas.org/abortion-care/afte...

I hope this helps

Best wishes

Katherine

[deela12]

I had the exact same experience. I was in so much pain and the blood was terrible. I was only 6 weeks and I didn't know that much blood was going to come out. I feel your pain but all you need to think about now is that you went through it and just remember all your pros and cons you first thought about. Hope everything is ok x

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I think it was very important for you to go into details of your experience because you are right, they do not explain how much blood you would experience. I guess for me, the idea of 'giving birth' to the fetus alone would be traumatising without the rest of blood and extreme pain.

It is such a shame that anyone has to go through this. I truly hope that you have been able to get over this!!