So yesterday I had the second pill in order to terminate my pregnancy. It was a huge decision for me to make to have an abortion, but I weighed out the pros and cons of my current situation and I just couldn't cope with having a baby right now. Being a student and going into my second year at university with with no money and no stable job. Yesterday was probably one of the worst days of my life. I started bleeding around an hour after receiving the medication, and as the day passed on, gradually I experienced more cramps and blood etc which is Normal I assume. However, I am slightly worried. At one point I was in horrendous amounts of pain and I was honestly hysterical. I was so scared. My boyfriend was home with me to support me but he didn't know what to do he felt so useless he tried to help in every way that he could but i think it was quite overwhelming for him as well as he didnt understand how much blood and stuff there was gonna be. Blood was gushing out of me constantly in excessive amounts and there was a lot of blood clots which I was told would be normal. Additionally, my boyfriend went out and bought me extra thick extra absorbent sanitary towels, but even they weren't soaking up the blood. I found myself having to change my towel every 5 minutes and even when I was doubling up and using super absorbent towels I was still leaking. There was moments where it was light blood like a period, then suddenly out of nowhere I could literally feel the blood pouring out of me and soaking the towel. I was so horrified and honestly it traumatised me. I was not expecting it to be as bad as it was and I felt that the nurse didn't explain to me how much blood there would be. I even saw remnants of the poor little foetus which left me in hysterics. I'm sorry for the excessive amount of information but I'm only 19 years old and I am honestly scarred for life. I am so traumatised by the situation and I feel so depressed and down about it all. I feel so guilty and I don't know what to do with myself. If I had known that it was going to be as bad as that I never would have gone through with it myself. Today I am not bleeding as badly and the pain has gone down significantly compared to yesterday I'm still taking antibiotics for it. I hope whoever is reading this and is thinking of aborting please realise that it's not as easy as taking a pill and bleeding a little. I will never forget this experience and the fact that I went through it basically alone without my parents or anything knowing was horrible. Ensure that if you are aborting make sure there you have a supportive environment and someone to care for you and look after you ! Sometimes aborting is the best option for some people it is your own decision and your own body and I don't mean to put anyone off in any way!