I'm a single mum of two, split with their dad a couple years ago. We have a good relationship and my daughters are settled. I've been back at work for a year now, finally getting my life on track and I've found out I'm pregnant. Been seeing a guy on and off for 10months, and we both agreed we couldn't have this kid. So yesterday I went to my appointment with Marie Stopes with all intentions to get rid of the growing bundle of cells in my tummy. Only to discover, I'm 8 weeks pregnant with IDENTICAL TWINS.! The consultant advised I go away and think about what I want to do. In my heart I want to keep them, the father has made it very clear that he won't be playing a part in their lives, and he's begging me to get rid. I understand life is going to be tough, working isn't really financially beneficial at the moment, I do it more for my independence, but that will not be the case when the twins are here so my job will be out the window. I did not see my future being a single mum on benefits to four children at the age of 27..Am I being crazy for even considering keeping these babies?! I feel like abortion is immoral at the best of times, twins are a blessing, but I really don't think I can do this on my own. My family are supportive and have said they'll be there for me whichever I decide.
I'm concerned that my girls are going to suffer and go without by having more kids. I hate the idea of the twins growing up without a father. I hate that I'll be back on benefits after working so hard to get off them, and I worry that I will never find "true love" I mean who takes on a benefit mum with 4 kids with two different dads.?!!!
I keep coming to the conclusion of get rid, but then something says woah can't do that..
I really need some advice please