Jimmy Remembered During Hospice Memor... - Blue Faery Liver ...

Blue Faery Liver Cancer

529 members257 posts

Jimmy Remembered During Hospice Memorial Service Part 1

DancingEyes63 profile image
2 Replies

I'm late posting this but I wanted to share. Cypress Basin Hospice had their annual Memorial Service in February. The bereavement counselor had asked if I'd speak and share about Jimmy and his time on Hospice and also how I was dealing with my grief after losing him. I was nervous and afraid I'd break down but even though I did cry I was able to speak and share how Jimmy lived and enjoyed his last months and spoke about our involvement in HCC advocacy and his request that I keep speaking out about what we'd been through. I also spoke about the fact that when I'd lost my daughter in 2010, I didn't deal with my grief. I put away everything that reminded me of her and buried the grief and about lost my mind because of it. My sweet Jimmy was the one who pulled me out of that darkness, got her pictures and things out and made me talk about her and her death. He made me realize by shutting it all inside I was robbing myself of not only the pain of her passing but also the joy that she had LIVED. I promised myself I wasn't going to lose Jimmy and the wonderful memories. So I've made a concerted effort to remember and talk about him, I have his pictures everywhere and I embrace the "Jimmy" that is all around me by remembering all the happy times we had. Not saying it's easy. It's not. He is the love of my life and we'd spent all our time together since he'd been forced to retire in 2016. Then especially after the HCC was diagnosed, I was his full time caregiver so we were together 24/7 for the last two years of his life. I cry every day because I miss him and it hurts so damn much. BUT I also smile, laugh and share memories of the wonderful man I was Blessed to love and be loved by every single day. Here's a picture from the memorial. It was so wonderful because they chose to honor and speak about Jimmy and his positivity and Joy in living up to the very end. They had gotten several pictures of him and us before HCC and during his time on Hospice and displayed them on the large screens behind me while I was speaking. So glad I was able to share what an awesome man my Jimmy was. ❤️❤️❤️

2 Replies
MichelleL_BlueFaery profile image

Thank you so much for sharing, I always love hearing about your updates💙 Jimmy's journey with HCC has touched so many people and your love for him as a caregiver and spouse has shown a lot of us the true meaning of love and what it means to truly LIVE. I'm so glad that so many more people were able to hear about how great of a person Jimmy was. His positivity and strength will continue to live on through all those that have heard your story. 💙

Iggy08713287 profile image

wonderful! Such a tribute to both of you!

You may also like...