My soul was crushed

[cmkleve]

My long time "boyfriend" (there is a story in and of itself there, first things first) has now in the last year in moments of drunk and anger told me to lose weight or called me heavy in public places so I was held hostage to my response.

I know I have gained about 15 lbs over the last 5 years mostly in my middle. I need toning and to lose the weight for sure. I truly thought as I drove away blinded by tears, this would be the good in the horrible that had just happend. I would lose weight for sure. Well, I did for about a month, but then I think my self doubt just overwhelmed me and I stabilized. I would love to lose the weight for me. I will tell you I have fantasies about losing it and him being all over me praise and then telling him to walk.

I need a good support group. I run a design biz and I am extremely busy, but I need to do this for me. Its got to be for me.

I appreciate any support

[Val1107]

Hello, cmkleve... I was in a similar situation. You have to lose weight for yourself, never for a jerk. I was a size 3 when I met my “EX” and we would go out to eat all the time, and as the weight came on, the meaner he would act towards me. Calling me fat in public places, in front of his friends, etc. That’s not cool. I gained about 20lbs. You deserve better! Besides, some men may like a woman with meat on her bones, me, myself I feel better as a person being more on the thinner side, it’s all about how you feel about yourself inside. Best of luck to you😃

[Waitedtolong in reply to Val1107]

Thank you

[Waitedtolong in reply to Waitedtolong]

I am doing for myself he can be replaced