I can't ask for help, and it's been a bad day.

[Kimmy14263]

Today I lost my control again. Somebody texted me this morning using an explanation point (how my sister did before she died) and I thought I was ok, but I broke another glass. I felt like I had no control, I got glass all over me and in my breakfast. I didn't realize it had gotten in my food and in an attempt to distract and calm myself down I ate my food pretty quickly. I threw up glass, my stomach is hurting and now I've been anxious all day that I could be in danger. I can't tell anyone because they would ask how I ended up eating glass and not realizing it. I just need a second opinion, the rest of the glass should just pass through me, right? and I haven't noticed any signs of bleeding, so I think I'm ok. I'm not ok though, I ate glass today because I am so disconnected and messed up. Has anyone else done these types of things before? I'm not sure if it's a result of rage or if I was in some sort of state, I am scared and all alone and I can tell things are getting worse. If I went to see a physicist, they would just give me medication, I have a hard time even looking at pill bottles (my sister overdosed) and I haven't taken a pill since she died. I just need a little reassurance right now.

[Hidden]

firstly Kimmy if you’ve accidentally ingested glass you need to seek urgent medical attention, even a small amount needs monitoring at least.

Medication from yr doctor to help with mood stabilising and helping you calm and cope isn’t such a bad thought is it? You need to talk with them at least.

I’m sorry I can’t reassure you but I understand how you feel, we all do, but please get some medical attention for the glass you’ve eaten.

Take care 🦊x

[chloe40 Administrator]

Kimmy

I echo the reply from Hidden please contact your local emergency services urgently x

[chloe40 Administrator]

Kimmy,

I have sent you a chat message x

[Caza]

I echo what Bingo & Chloe have said. You need help.

& the answer to your question is yes, I’ve done lots of crazy things when I’ve felt disconnected